Hello. I'm a 6'3" guy, I weigh about 155, I don't really have any fat, just lean muscle I suppose. I don't look quite feminine. Anywho, that was a physical background intro. As for my problem, I've known I want to be a female since I've about the age of 10, and I've felt that way without realizing it even earlier. Both my parents are very strictly anti-gay, or anti anything that doesn't categorize as "normal" for them. I have bad OCD about death, and try to be really healthy so I can live the longest life possible, so I've suppressed the TG feeling to the point where I don't consider transitioning a reality, despite hours a day spent dreaming and wishing. Now I'm just realizing that such an upset and stressed mental condition can actually be worse for me than the negative long term repercussions of hrt. Are the long term downsides of hrt that bad? Am I too late to start hrt? I already have gone through quite a bit of puberty. What steps do I take to doing something as soon as I can? I've read that every day makes a difference in age with hrt. Someone please help.

Hi Jon1786, welcome to Susan's Place! A gender therapist is the traditional first step. Take a good look around the site and you'll get a good idea how it works. Hugs, Devlyn

I can tell you, without a doubt, that you are not "too old" to start HRT.  Natal males are often still in the late stages of puberty into their 20s.

Ideally, you would want to speak with a therapist, to make sure your gender dysphoria is not OCD.  Given it has been with you for several years, I tend to think it's real.

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