I used to be on here (very recently) as magickitty. But i've made my decision and i'm back. So the past few days have been a bit hard. I had an extreme purge moment and I literally deleted everything, all my pictures I had, videos, my youtube channel. Literally anything relating to trans stuff. Which I now regret, but I guess it's going to be nice to have a fresh start. Thankfully I didn't cut my hair off (7 months in the making) like I usually do.
Almost 2 weeks ago I went to a psychiatrist to hopefully get something to make me "stable", and she ended up prescribing me lamotrigine, a bipolar med. Generally everything seems to be going great and then almost instantly a switch goes off (triggered by something), and then I make impulsive decisions. I think she thinks i'm bipolar (she said her prescribing that to me doesn't mean i'm bipolar, but i think she doesn't want to diagnose me with anything my first visit, so who knows what's up with my head). But hopefully whatever does happen will prevent this from occurring again.
And now i'm going to reschedule my 2nd laser hair removal session that I cancelled a few days ago.