Hello all.
I have been away from the boards for some time for various reasons.

Mainly that my thearpist kept on insisting that I reach personal goals that he had laid down fo me, rather than refer me to the doctor for hormone treatment as he would.
I became lost and very nearly stopped in my tracks, when he told me to go and buy a pair of silicone breasts to wear in a bra.
His idea being that people would become used to seeing me with breasts ! however one day I have no breasts and the next day I have them, Umm me thinks not.
His idea just threw me and I turned away from my path and I shutdown to concentrate on my job.

I then met a lovely young lady, and I told her about myself and she was cool, so long as I dont chop anything off yet.
My threarpist, because I had used up my first sessions on the grant had to apply for second stage funding for my next stage, which is hair removal by laser.
I received mail to say that funding had come through and my appointment date is set.
As much as I dislike him, I cut out the rubbish he comes out with and I concentrate on me as thats all that counts.

I see a lady at a beauty salon and she does various treatments for me, but I explained to her that it was expected of me to wear a bra with silicone breasts which altogether would look very odd on me, she was quite shocked to hear that he had advised me to do this.
I am very concious of the young girls in the salon and what they think of me and what I am doing but they are as always very helpfull and friendly.
I used to go to another salon but the young lady that owns it betrayed me by talking to others, who then contacted me to say she was openly talking about me, so I phoned her and explained that in future I was unable to attend her salon for treatment.

I have been working on my name and I feel Loli and Holly are far to babyish, and so I have decided to go for a straight cut name (Karen).

Speak soon xx

Hi Karen

What an odd think for a therapist to say.  Sounds like the fellow is more interested in grant money then helping.  I don't know of a therapist that actually has a list that one must complete to do hormones.  Sounds like a 12 step plan to TS.  If you really hate your therapist, then maybe you need a new therapist.   

Take care

Beni

I still think your therapist is awful, and sounds like a Blanchard school of thought crackpot, and you should try to seek another one out ASAP.

With regards to HRT, well I have some thoughts in those in the UK who are dragged through a long process just to get a letter.  HRT should not be denied in such a way.

I have some other thoughts.  But there is a school of thought with regards to therapist like yours (if you are stuck with them): ignore them. 

I've known women to wear silicone breasts before BA to see if they like being a larger size and trying them out before surgery, but I have never heard of this. How odd is that? I think this is really bad advice and I wouldnt do it either. Is there no other therapists you can see?

Quote from: Lori on July 02, 2007, 12:48:21 PM
I've known women to wear silicone breasts before BA to see if they like being a larger size and trying them out before surgery, but I have never heard of this. How odd is that? I think this is really bad advice and I wouldnt do it either. Is there no other therapists you can see?

I've had the same advice when I saw the surgeon for breast augmentation. He suggested I try out the silicon type inserts in my bra to get a feel of what it's like to have larger breasts.  This is usual advice from surgeons.

Years ago, I wasn't sure how far I could go with my transtion, so I decided to be a non-op. I was able to find a company (The Breast Form Store) that gave me exactly what size breast form I needed.  I've seen some woman that have had BA done, and because if their body size now being overweighed by their breast size, it just looks offset.

Gina 

Quote from: gina_taylor on July 03, 2007, 10:44:29 AM
Years ago, I wasn't sure how far I could go with my transtion, so I decided to be a non-op. I was able to find a company (The Breast Form Store) that gave me exactly what size breast form I needed.  I've seen some woman that have had BA done, and because if their body size now being overweighed by their breast size, it just looks offset.

Gina 

Gina, personally I have no desire to stuff a bra with breast forms. If your on the beach it would be a bit silly....

Usually it's more difficult to get a breast operation big enough as genetic females differ to transsexuals in upper body
size and are much smaller, where as transsexuals are usually much bigger...

Hello all,

Well time march's on, and the both appointments, one for a laser consultation and the other with my thearpist is at the end of the month both on the same day !!
maybe during the next appointment he will agree to me seeing the doctor !
I will try and push him on this saying that I need the cover letter for work for my social well being as well.
He wants me to dress at work en-fem but does not seem to understand that the girls at work wear the same uniform as the guys which is very non discript boring clothing.
I want to start hormone treatment so that I can pass more easily in role whilst wearing some fem clothing, otherwise I just look like a guy in dragg.
He wants me to get into role before he allows me to see the doctor.
I dont believe he can stop me from seeing the doctor as I have a funny feeling he is only there to advise and offer help, so maybe by requesting he makes an appointment for me to see the doctor he will have to.

As for the silicone breasts I bought a pair in size 4.
They look very strange on me because I went from small mounds to full on devloped breasts in one day, my problem is though through genetic misfortune I have partial devlopment, though my left breast is more devloped than my right so in time I may need a BA.

The young woman I am with I dont think is too sympathic to my cause and would rather I did not continue, I enjoy her company alot but I do have a mental problem with her in love making ! I just feel I am doing something wrong and though she wants full on sex it kinda of turns me off cause she wants me to use that and I cant stand looking at it let alone doing anything erotic with it.
I would rather have a lesbian relationship with her.
Why is life so confusing !! 

L8r Karen xx