It might sound jealous, but I looked into this thread for the first time and my tears immediatly started to go. Yeah, you look fabulous, but I want that, too. I feel as if I'll never succeed in that. Life's so unfair sometimes; I should have never been a boy or at least getting on track earlier. I wish I accepted it earlier. I wish I was like you.
I'm so sorry that I can't be happy for you right now; it just makes me to sad comparing. I would really like to be happy for you. I just can't. I'm sorry.