Quote from: Shantel on August 02, 2013, 02:39:54 PM
Kudos! 

There's a third person tat will be working with us as well, I don't know who they are yet. I hope it is someone I know and like!

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 02, 2013, 03:27:45 PM
There's a third person tat will be working with us as well, I don't know who they are yet. I hope it is someone I know and like!

Keep your fingers crossed, we all know how Murphy's law works.

Quote from: JulieR on August 02, 2013, 05:50:41 PM
Season 5 of "Breaking Bad" is now on Netflix!!!!!

WOO HOO!!

Quote from: MadeleineG on August 02, 2013, 05:52:19 PM
WOO HOO!!

Walt is turning into a real bad ass!

I saw a trailer for a new (to me) show I now really want to watch.

Quote from: Shantel on August 02, 2013, 06:44:50 PM
Walt is turning into a real bad ass!

No spoilers, Auntie Shan!

Maddy

Went out for drinks at a dive bar with a few of my new coworkers (all male) this afternoon after work. Made me happy because I think it means I'm officially stealth at work (other than a few of the higher up folks who hired me and know about my 'condition'). I've never really been stealth before I got this job, and today I just felt like one of the guys .

Still feel nervous because sometimes I can't believe they don't even suspect, and I'm waiting for someone to figure it all out. But hey, for now things are good.

I beat my social anxiety enough to call and leave a message for a local electrologist. She rolls... if slowly.

Maddy thinks that GID + SAD = Cosmic Joke

Midnight run to the fast food drive thru with a couple of family friends. Small things like that always is what gets me up!

I had a "revelation." Lol.

I was misgendered today, and it really hurt me badly. It has been so long, and it was because I was in a more "adult" situation (not sex lol) so there was no way I could be read as 16, which is about the age I look. So...it really confirms that it is very possible I could be either misgendered or pegged as trans while teaching. And, that just makes me feel horrible because I am so sick of this pain. But I need to be an adult, the world doesn't just stop spinning because I look too young to be my age. I need money.

But here it was. I was laid down, playing on my tablet, and I thought: I'm sad. How normal is that? I used to be so depressed that I never thought "I'm sad." Because I was always sad. I was always sad as a girl. Sad was my normal. But now...I can say...I am sad, because sad is no longer my normal. Sad is just sad, and it happens sometimes.

I don't give a crap what anyone else thinks. you're a good looking guy. I can't see you as anything but that. you wont believe me but that's okay. I will wait and then you'll owe me yet another "You were right."

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 03, 2013, 05:04:16 AM
I had a "revelation." Lol.

I was misgendered today, and it really hurt me badly. It has been so long, and it was because I was in a more "adult" situation (not sex lol) so there was no way I could be read as 16, which is about the age I look. So...it really confirms that it is very possible I could be either misgendered or pegged as trans while teaching. And, that just makes me feel horrible because I am so sick of this pain. But I need to be an adult, the world doesn't just stop spinning because I look too young to be my age. I need money.

It happens to the best of the best at times, you can't let it crush and destroy you like that Caleb, just politely correct that individual and let it go.

Quote from: Ketchup Packet on August 03, 2013, 05:04:16 AM
But here it was. I was laid down, playing on my tablet, and I thought: I'm sad. How normal is that? I used to be so depressed that I never thought "I'm sad." Because I was always sad. I was always sad as a girl. Sad was my normal. But now...I can say...I am sad, because sad is no longer my normal. Sad is just sad, and it happens sometimes.

I remember feeling this exact same thing once, and it's an ironic situation, but it does make you feel surprisingly happy.  Maybe happy isn't the right word for it, but it's a positive feeling despite feeling sad in the first place.

My grandfather, who doesn't know I'm anything but a girl, called me "railway man" today.  I find it so reassuring and affirming when people refer to me as male, or use more masculine orientated words, even though they know me as something else.  Something must be subconsciously sinking through.  And yes, he's still got his marbles.

Yeah, it is a small comfort.

Fresh contact lenses

Susan, and my adorable nephews.

Got a nice piece of cod from the fishmonger........and a  Ma'am! In boy mode!

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on August 04, 2013, 05:40:28 PM
Got a nice piece of cod from the fishmonger........and a  Ma'am! In boy mode!

Cool, cheap thrill huh? 

My toes are painted ten different colours.

Maddy is in touch with her inner child.

Thanks, Julie and Shan, it picked me up bigtime because I wasn't expecting it at all. I flashed a big smile and tried not to let my voice ruin it!