The Dark Side of Being Transgender: Having Little Choice
Danielle Kaufman, M.D., 08/02/2013 8:37 pm

*Trigger Warning - Suicide*
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/danielle-kaufman-md/the-dark-side-of-being-transgender-having-little-choice_b_3692430.html

People outside the trans experience have a truly hard time understanding the magnitude of the task of changing gender expression. No one would ever do this unless they were forced to by their own psychology. I did choose to follow a number of specific steps to change my gender expression; it's just that I was so compelled by inner need that I would say it's not really a choice.

I agree with a lot of this (the exception being desire for periods).  I was terrified for most  of my childhood about getting periods. My sisters taught me that I too was going to have them and that they would be painful.  Besides that, I am with her.

Wow. These ring so true:

QuotePeople outside the trans experience have a truly hard time understanding the magnitude of the task of changing gender expression. No one would ever do this unless they were forced to by their own psychology. I did choose to follow a number of specific steps to change my gender expression; it's just that I was so compelled by inner need that I would say it's not really a choice.

I didn't see women as the "superior" sex, rather as a spectrum of types, just like men. But their types were generally good, with only a few "bad" types (perpetual bitches, etc)...men had only one good type: Tough guy, rough-n-readies (either "woodsie" or "businessman" varieties), most of the others were "bad" (predatory, violent, effeminate (I saw "gay" men as cowards, sorry), etc.

Well...umm...come to think of it, yeah, this would be "superior"...

A flash of insight...