Hi,
I'm Amy a new girl to the TG community, and starting to explore the depths of TG feelings. I am born male masculine expression to the world and like many, having feelings from an early age of gender awkwardness, and used shame, religion, karma, fear and denial to repress any identification I had with feminity. After 33 years, I am just tired of repressing and need to see how deep the rabbit hole goes to find a level of balance.
I started my early life playing mostly with girls till about ten, started hanging out with guys as my closest friends. Then puberty hit, felt attracted to girls romantically and physically, but on some level wanted my body to parallel their development. I found some outlets such as roll-playing games and crossdressing, but always took a step back when I felt like I was going to out myself. Well, after a series of emotinally taxing life events I let it slip to my therapist, who ended up being very sympathetic.
I don't want to change too much about my life by risking a great group of friends, family and one very special woman. Nor do I know what gender balance looks like. I am in no hurry to make any drastic changes, just trying to find the gender expression sweet spot.
I look forward to learing from everybody here, wish all of you the best.
Lots of Love,
Amy
