Managed to bang my arm against a metal pole resulting in a spectacular bruise.

Died in a video game

Another night of dwelling on what I wish I could do with myself and not affect my full time job or military. I almost smoked a little of my marijuana stash tonight just as a stress reliever but I have too much riding on my military thing to just dump it away if I get tested next drill, so instead I'm drinking tonight, and very much so in excess. So much is going on right now that I can't fix or take care of but all these people are calling me to fix it and I eventually got to the point that I was straight up answering the phone and saying first thing: "I'm busy and will be busy for the rest of the day call me in the morning" and hanging up because I was in the middle of a serious operation changing well heads (oil field stuff), and then getting yelled at by my boss because I told a big shot higher up that even though I could literally not use my phone and at least had the courtesy to say hey I can't talk I'll get back to you" and was taken as an insult even though I did exactly that. When I explained the situation the consultant understood and apologized for getting me in trouble and asked if there was anything he could do to alleviate the situation. I asked for an $100,000 bonus and my own rig......well it was worth a shot. Stranger things have happened right? Just look at our government.

Quote from: Boolia Baconseed on August 19, 2013, 10:56:42 PM
I'll be losing my internet for a few months

Oh no!  Where will I get bad advice?! 

Quote from: Jamie D on August 20, 2013, 02:38:20 AM
Oh no!  Where will I get bad advice?! 

i can help with that.

Eight years and i still miss you terribly. You never got to see us grow up, just one last talk, please........

Woke up quite sick, and it's not just brown bottle flu when my throat is super sore, swollen glands, fever, year I have a cold and brown bottle flu.

Like every day, that I have this stupid male area, that won't be cured until 2015, at the earliest, more than likely...

Add this to the fact that I'm worried my face will always like this, seemingly stuck in an androgynous look, and not female. I'm almost 10 months in on HRT, seemingly started young (though to me, still too late, at 20), and sigh.

Just why me? I hate having this transsexual medical condition...wish I was cured by now. I wish I never had this, I loathe every part of it! I'd rather have this than being a man, though, no offense guys.

This hurts so much, I feel ugly with my body, face, and especially down there. I need SRS as soon as possible...please...

No self harm risk, this is just deep set pain...

Another week of penicilin for my celulitis,it makes my stomach sore,gives me the runs,I can't have a drink and it still hasn't made made my leg better!

i'm not in a good place right now. I am kind of sad. Some people you never stop mourning after.

Another night of insomia.  It's getting frustrating. Guess it's back to advil pm and melatonin.   

Quote from: ZootAllures! on August 20, 2013, 03:43:09 PM
i'm not in a good place right now. I am kind of sad. Some people you never stop mourning after.

I'm very sorry to hear this.  I hope you're okay.

im pulling myself apart inside my head. I had to cancel my gender therapy appointment and now I have nothing to look forward to. My gf just started working again, which is good, but we're barely scraping by. She's depressed because we haven't been able to afford havin our son at home, so we haven't seen him in a month. Every time something good happens, something bad follows. I don't make nearly what I need to, but I love my job and the people I work with fully accept me. I hate that I can't support us. I'm posing my drive now that I have no idea when I'll be on hormones. I'm lost.

Quote from: TheLance on August 22, 2013, 01:20:13 PM
im pulling myself apart inside my head. I had to cancel my gender therapy appointment and now I have nothing to look forward to. My gf just started working again, which is good, but we're barely scraping by. She's depressed because we haven't been able to afford havin our son at home, so we haven't seen him in a month. Every time something good happens, something bad follows. I don't make nearly what I need to, but I love my job and the people I work with fully accept me. I hate that I can't support us. I'm posing my drive now that I have no idea when I'll be on hormones. I'm lost.

It saddens me to hear you haven't seen your son for a month, and are struggling.

It's hittin my gf even harder cause she's mommy, you know...which makes my heart ache cause I don't make enough to take care of him. He's with her ex. Meh. Nothing positive to say there.

Terrible cramps. Wonder what is causing them.

Feeling really depressed and lonely at the moment.

1 minute left in the day/night and I'm plagued with heart burn from the tequila I used to alleviate the stress from the day. It did its job but damn the side-effects.

Had a drunk woman fall on me as she was being escorted from the hotel by the Police leaving me with  a sprained wrist

I'm sorry you feel that way, emerald. I'm right there with you though, on both accounts.

My laptop died completely out of the blue the other day, and I ordered a new one that's supposed to arrive today.  I know I've got until 5pm for it to arrive, but I've read horror stories of DX Secure couriers, and I didn't realise they were the ones that the company I brought it from use until they sent me tracking info this morning.  And it's going to be windows 8, which I cannot see any point in putting on anything other than a tablet or phone.  The only upside is that I did managed to salvage the harddrive.