So I started T back in May and have been off for a number of months now.
I'm not sure how many anymore. I feel like it's finally almost out of my system, and now I feel terrible. (I stopped cold turkey which was probably my first big mistake)

The reason why I stopped wasn't because I didn't want to continue to transition, but because simply put, I am fat and paranoid about getting diabetes. I had PCOS to begin with, which made weight loss harder even without testosterone, and after starting T and then deciding out of fear of increased further risk of diabetes I quit, and planned to start again when I've lost weight.

However, now that it's finally working itself out of my system and my T levels are probably around what they started at, and I feel like crap and I'm kind of wanting to just get back on it.

Does anyone know if controlling weight would be harder on T than it already is with PCOS or if I should just stay off until I feel like I've lost enough weight that the diabetes isn't as big of a risk?

Sorry if this is phrased weird or if the thread is in the wrong spot, I'm kind of worried and upset right now but any kind of help would be welcome.

Hormones are very important and powerful substances in the body. Going off and on again is hard on your body, especially if you have existing medical conditions. This probably explains that "feeling like crap" thing.

If you're going to go back on it and you have health concerns I would think it would be paramount to find a doctor who shares these concerns with you and will test your bloodwork frequently.

What happens though if you get unwanted (bad) effects from T? What's your contingency plan? Lower dose? Additional meds? Going off again? These are things to consider.

Do you have the means to perhaps work with a personal trainer and nutritionist that could help you loose the weight and get as healthy as possible before starting again?

Quote from: insideontheoutside on August 22, 2013, 12:03:15 AM
Hormones are very important and powerful substances in the body. Going off and on again is hard on your body, especially if you have existing medical conditions. This probably explains that "feeling like crap" thing.

If you're going to go back on it and you have health concerns I would think it would be paramount to find a doctor who shares these concerns with you and will test your bloodwork frequently.

What happens though if you get unwanted (bad) effects from T? What's your contingency plan? Lower dose? Additional meds? Going off again? These are things to consider.

Do you have the means to perhaps work with a personal trainer and nutritionist that could help you loose the weight and get as healthy as possible before starting again?

My family is kind of living paycheck to paycheck and because of mental health problems I can't personally function well enough to keep a job to afford a personal trainer or nutritionist (unless either of those things might be covered by my mom's work health insurance) so I'd probably be on my own trying to lose weight, unfortunately.

The only unwanted effects I could think of really is if it DID cause me to get diabetes, or alternately, going bald, since my hair is virtually the only thing I like about my appearance, in that case, I would probably either lower the dosage, or this time, wean myself off them. There's nothing else that I would consider undesirable, and even with the hair loss I might be able to just rogaine or whatever.

The thing is, I did want to wean myself off them this first time, and not just flat out stop using them, but I have the great luck of living somewhere where the only endocrinologist with any knowledge of administering to transsexual patients seems impossible to get a hold of and the clinic itself was a circus that never let me actually talk to any doctors other than the first two times I went there.

Anyway (Feels like I went off on some tangents there kinda w/ explaining myself), Thank you for the advice that I should try to get myself into better health before trying again. That's kind of what I was thinking too, but I don't know, I worry, often.

Would you recommend I try seeing my endocrinologist again at this point or wait until I'm ready to start back up again?

(Oh and thank you for your reply too!)

I wonder if you can get an appt with your endo  and just talk about your concerns and needs?  see what they think and recommend and you dont have to make a decsion right away. I like the to get more info when i can.