I haven't been with a woman in at least a decade, and I'm sure for me it's neither preference or choice. I'm now of the belief that if I didn't have a society telling me that I was supposed to like women sexually that I don't think I would have ever been with any. When I was it felt great, I mean how can someone, anyone say sex isn't fun if the partner isn't doing something to hurt you, especially if you both know how to make love, even with the same sex, which is how I viewed women. I felt guilty, though. I've been very attracted to guys since puberty, so attracted that I'd literally get weak kneed and/or have to catch my breath anytime I was around the boys I had crushes on and that NEVER happened with girls. I believe it's because I knew I had the heart and soul of a girl, and consequently, I was far more sexually attracted to guys. I've had my most emotionally and physically comfortable and rewarding lovemaking with a man, always because it made me feel so feminine, so much a woman and it just feels better to me physically and emotionally than anything else I've ever felt. Because it just felt right. I never once took a male role with a man, because I've always known who I am. I answered this because I believe for some people choosing sex with one gender or another isn't a choice. I've been living as a woman ten days short of two years (wow, I still can't believe how quickly it's gone by!) but I think for at least ten years before that I doubt if I could have performed sexually with a woman. I always felt that sex with a man was far more natural for me, feeling I was a woman, and each time with a woman I felt like a lesbian and for me, down deep it didn't feel right. I felt like a heterosexual woman having lesbian sex when I was bisexual for decades before I finally transitioned. I was always trying to prove I was a man to my friends and family, but I never kidded myself. I've always been female.
