Bardoux, thanks

I like that myself too! It feels even more odd to be called 'she' now, cause when I see myself I don't even SEE a 'she' anymore. So now I see a guy in the mirror and feel one inside, and people still call me she... which feels... annoying and weird.
Strangers usually gender me correctly on first sight, but I had quite a few "Hey young man!" "Yes?" "Ohhh, sorry miss!" kind of occasions. :/ So I guess my voice IS the breaking point, whether it be pitch or female speech patterns (I try to avoid anything obvious, but even when I do it doesn't help)
I'm really looking forward to T, but the waiting list in the Netherlands is pretty long (I think 1 year in the least, maybe even 1,5 year. Or longer if you don't get "green light" right away), and I yet have to come out to my parents, friends, etc.
I just wish I had told them sooner. But thanks to lots of stress in my childhood and earlier years (bullying, difficulties with school, etc.) my brain was way too busy sorting that stuff out. Only later, when my life calmed down, I truly realized the magnitude of my gender identity confusion and acknowledged it (damn you, denial phase)