Hiya. I'll go by Noiro whether it's feminine or not, who cares? If I made another account I"d likely forget it. Anyhow, I'm a bit new to this though I've kinda had an idea I was TS for a while (well...I knew something wasn't right, I just didn't know TS was a thing). That being said, I'm still kind of fighting with how heavily this influences me as I don't feel like it is going to eat me from the inside out as many people put it, but since it was not until very recently that I found out, I dunno.
At the age of 5-6, I was in bed one night and was literally crying because I wished I had been born female. I was never the most manly kid....I was famous for *cue high-pitched whiney voice* "STOOOOOP IT".
As I grew older, the need dissipated but I"d occasionally have a random "I wish I were female" or "damn it, I'd love to be able to act like that and not be judged" go through my head, but it was not all that strong. It just kinda recurred. At the ripe ole' age of 19, I was reading around and the subject of ->-bleeped-<-/transsexual came up and that was when I had a light bulb moment. It made sense (mostly, still working out the details.....I'm new to this). So yeah, if you managed to follow all of this by now, I thank you much.
Also, I'm not sure if I should transition or not due to...the obvious difficulties/struggles/emotional hell involved and I basically struck a deal with myself that if my dysphoria became bad enough over time (I have one and a half years before I can do anything anyway (when I'm finally off on my own)), I'd transition, otherwise, I'd likely be better off as is and just deal with it internally. I'm fairly sensitive to the opinions of others....so being judged by...everyone....would not do my emotions a whole lot of good.
Anyhow, if you managed to get through that epic story, I hereby present you an honorary hug, handshake, whatever floats your boat and I take my leave in hopes to see comments/advice/questions/etc.
*Bows*
P.S. I edit my posts a lot and this captcha will likely drive me insane.
P.S.S. Any advice specifically of things I could do in the year and a half I have left which cost very little money in the event I do end up having to transition?
