I know no one gives a damn about me and thinks i'm a drama queen but i have to vent all my pain somewhere because nobody in my life wants to listen.

I want to die, i want to die so badly but i am a coward, i want to die, i have social anxiety, manic depression, i'm freakishly ugly and i am broke.

I fear looking into the mirror, i am scared for my life...just a while ago i was so scared that my whole body was shaking and i couldn't talk, my mother keeps raising her voice and making sarcastic comments and i am so scared...i am so scared, of all the social, mental pain that i am and further more that i'm going to suffer.

I hate being me, i hate being so ugly, i hate being a monster...i just really wish god would give me a heart attack so i can die.

Hey Donna you really need to stop being so hard on yourself your a beautiful woman. And your going to have to learn to accept what you see in the mirror is not ugly or a freak. Life is to short for you to spend it being miserable. Enjoy what you have I'm sure they are plenty of women on this site who would trade places with you in a heartbeat. Don't let what you see in the mirror control your life just accept who you are flaws and all and know your beautiful no matter the lies your mind tells you.

Quote from: Heather on August 31, 2013, 11:26:07 PM
Hey Donna you really need to stop being so hard on yourself your a beautiful woman. And your going to have to learn to accept what you see in the mirror is not ugly or a freak. Life is to short for you to spend it being miserable. Enjoy what you have I'm sure they are plenty of women on this site who would trade places with you in a heartbeat. Don't let what you see in the mirror control your life just accept who you are flaws and all and know your beautiful no matter the lies your mind tells you.

I couldn't have put it better.

Donna, please hang in there. 

Thanks for the replies, i guess no one else cares about me...

Hey pretty lady you just might have secret admirers that are too shy to tell you how good you look.
Please choose to live.  Live well and full and in the sunshine.  You might save someone else that way too.
Nothing wrong with drama, it does Hollywood a huge service.
Ok, maybe you need some comedy shows to lighten that load.

You did seem to have a bad record playing and I hope you can play another tune soon.

Hang on!

Quote from: Donna Troy on September 01, 2013, 03:19:24 PM
Thanks for the replies, i guess no one else cares about me...

Donna, people posting shows they care about you. Stop for a moment and actually read what they said. They are saying the same things I been telling you. You are very pretty you just need to work on you self esteem.

Ooh! Ooh! I care! Big hug! Look at the vews on your post, hon. That's who cares. Sometimes people just don't know what to say to make things any better. It's up to you to do that, and we'll be here beside you. Hugs, Devlyn

Donna,
I read your post yesterday and really didn't know what to say. I read your words, I looked at your avatar photo and I simply don't understand. If that is you, you are remarkably pretty. Also, yes, I have seen similar posts from you in the past so this issue with how you see yourself, which has us all wondering what you see that we don't, seems to come back very often.
Do you actually get to talk to anyone about how you feel about yourself anywhere and I'm talking about specialist help here?  I mention this because when what you see seems so different to what everyone else sees, it is certainly something that needs to be looked into a lot deeper.
I know you mention other things too but something tells me that your underlying issues with your self image are the main cause of everything else you mention.
No matter what, please don't think that people don't care. Sometimes we simply don't have any obvious answers.
Believe me though , you are  one very attractive young lady.
Hugs
Donna

P.S. As you can see, Devlyn took the words out of my mouth just beating me to it by a little over a minute...

Quote from: Donna Troy on September 01, 2013, 03:19:24 PM
Thanks for the replies, i guess no one else cares about me...

Donna, you know I care, right? Remember last time you posted something like this? I told you I always read your posts, but I don't always post unless I have something to say that I haven't said before.

Please reread my post from before. I really mean everything I said:

Quote from: suzifrommd on July 23, 2013, 06:58:19 PM
Donna, I know I haven't responded to of your posts for awhile.

That's only because I really haven't had anything to say that I haven't said already.

Even though I haven't responded, I always read your posts. I never ignore them.

I know I'm probably been lost amongst all people who've given encouraging words throughout the years, but I am still on your side.

I've followed your move to a new country, and the ups and downs with your family. You are on my list of people I think about and wish good things for.

So I hope sometime when you're sure no one cares, you'll remember my name and remember there's a person out there who knows what a sensitive soul you are and who wishes you well.

Good luck Donna. I care.

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,145195.msg1187670.html#msg1187670

  YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP.IF THATS YOUR WORST PICTURE YOUR ARE BLESSED.

Quote from: Donna Troy on September 03, 2013, 08:02:46 PM


Don't have much money, i've thought about it believe me but have been denied by parents. Also my avatar is a really good picture of me, here is the worst picture that i have....do i really look that good?

Hon, you look great! You know that. Hugs, Devlyn

Quote from: Donna Troy on September 03, 2013, 08:02:46 PM


Don't have much money, i've thought about it believe me but have been denied by parents. Also my avatar is a really good picture of me, here is the worst picture that i have....do i really look that good?

Donna I've said it time and time again. Yes you really do look that good.

Donna you appear to a beautiful woman to this casual observer but it is not my view that counts.  We all know gorgeous people who find faults and something wrong, even those movie star celebrities.  If we rely on the masses for validation we risk a fickle crowd that may be, in the end, ready for the next pretty face.  We age, we change and beauty may be transient.  Please allow yourself to feel some of the beauty your smile reveals even in your "worst picture"

Quote from: Donna Troy on September 01, 2013, 03:19:24 PM
Thanks for the replies, i guess no one else cares about me...

Quit feeling sorry for yourself. I don't do guilt trips for anyone.

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. No one can tell you more convincingly than YOURSELF. If you don't believe in yourself, no amount of "Rah-rah YAY! for Donna!" will help.

Tell that inner critic of yours to STFU.

*hugs*

i don't come here and write all of this down without truly feeling what i write, i know it seems constant but i do try not to post until i can't take it anymore. It may be whining to you but i do feel a lot of pain and i have no one to talk to except to express my feelings here.

I have manic depression, Social Anxiety & BBD (or whatever's it's called)....i do have a very hard time just being me. I do appreciate your replies very much i hope i don't come off like i'm attacking, it's just i don't know...

Quote from: Donna Troy on September 04, 2013, 05:56:11 PM
i don't come here and write all of this down without truly feeling what i write, i know it seems constant but i do try not to post until i can't take it anymore. It may be whining to you but i do feel a lot of pain and i have no one to talk to except to express my feelings here.

I have manic depression, Social Anxiety & BBD (or whatever's it's called)....i do have a very hard time just being me. I do appreciate your replies very much i hope i don't come off like i'm attacking, it's just i don't know...

Body Dysmorphic Disorder

It mean you perceive defects that aren't there.