Hi everyone,
I just stopped crying after getting a little emotional over my sister insulting one of the cats. My problem is that I feel she only hates that cat(Blacky) because she (the cat) isn't as pretty as she used to be. I feel very emotional when she insults Blacky and complements Pinty (our other cat who I often have to clean up after, who's four times as large and cute).
I took it personally and told her ugliness can be fixed before going into my room.
I started thinking about the surgeries I want. FFS, SRS, BA and a butt lift. Those are my intended surgeries what worries me is that I struggle with sleep paralyze.
If you've ever experienced it before you know how terrifying it can be. Basically you've either just fallen asleep or are about to wake up. You get this lifelike dream like your strapped to your bed but your muscles are still asleep so you can't move. All you can do is look around. For me this is usually accompanied by blood curdling screaming which my guess is a result of the fans and air conditioner I have by my bed (a small portable one... I live in FL). Either way it's a horrifying experience and sometimes I wake up in my room at our old house. Some people see an old lady come into their rooms, I've seen black forms and my cat Meowy shortly after he died.
What does any of this have to do with the title? It's very rare but some unlucky people who go under the knife can experience anesthesia awareness. Where they are completely conscious but can't move because their muscles are put asleep by the medicine. THEY FEEL EVERYTHING, but are unable to respond and pass out because of the pain. They can't say anything but they can listen, in one article a lady heard the doctor ask the nurse for a scalpel.
This is really scary for me. I can deal with sleep paralyze but Anesthesia Awareness is terrifying. Can anyone relate. Can the doctor do something about this, I'm hoping I'm just being overly paranoid.