So after experiencing GD all my life, I am about to start the process of getting onto hormones for the first time.
Having blood test to get a base line next week and then the next step HRT. Finally!

I have always know I should have been female and struggled to fit into a male role.
Yet after a therapy session yesterday, where we decided on a plan of action, I now feel quite anxious unlike I have felt before.
This has confused me as it is a very unexpected reaction.

Has anyone else felt like this prior to starting HRT?

I know what I want, but I think the anxiety is about how things will turn out in the longer term not about the process itself.

I hope this is just me being silly and overthinking it. 

Jen

Seems pretty normal to me

I think it's a case of being anxious and nervous about the next month, next 6 months, next year and so on. Undoubtedly you're aware of the varying mileage with HRT, and it's very much a case of wait and see. That's enough to unsettle anyone!

They don't call it a rollercoaster for nothing.

Hugs, very happy for you! Yay HRT

Sounds normal. Change can be scary. There's a whole political party in the US devoted to stopping it.

Congrats!!! Very happy for you also 

Quote from: Jenny07 on September 08, 2013, 02:04:38 AM
So after experiencing GD all my life, I am about to start the process of getting onto hormones for the first time.
Having blood test to get a base line next week and then the next step HRT. Finally!

I have always know I should have been female and struggled to fit into a male role.
Yet after a therapy session yesterday, where we decided on a plan of action, I now feel quite anxious unlike I have felt before.
This has confused me as it is a very unexpected reaction.

Has anyone else felt like this prior to starting HRT?

I know what I want, but I think the anxiety is about how things will turn out in the longer term not about the process itself.

I hope this is just me being silly and overthinking it. 

Jen

Congratulations, I'm happy for you Jen. I just had my first therapy session a few days ago so you are a bit ahead of me - but I'm anxious as can be. I'm eager to transition but I am worried about being rejected by a few key loved ones and am also worried about passing. I want to present as male till I can pass as female. There are just so many questions too as to how it will turn out and how I will manage to pay for all of this. Oh well, guess I will find out. 

Thanks everyone, I think you're right about fear of change causing the anxiety.

It will probably take some time to feel comfortable with them, but I wont let it stop me be me.


Hugs Jen

I promise you, that very first day with the little blue pill ( regimen depending ) is going to be simply amazing.

And don't forget to claim your cookies. 

I tried HRT, and got the approval letter from a psychiatrist. But the surgeon warned me of dramatic changes in my body and even voice. He said to me that he will give prescription if I come again with my wife and she agrees. He was the most famous SRS surgeon in my country, having conducted several hundreds. He said his rule is not to allow transition to married persons.

As I should be and take the role of a dad and a husband at my home, I stopped there. I still believe my decision was right. If I am not married, then I will do transition tomorrow.

barbie~~

Oh it's completely normal.  I had a plan and everything, but when I knew I was going to be getting my pills it was "go over it again" time for a week.  But later on when the little blue pill was in my hand it only took a minute to say goodbye to that old life and move on with a smile.

You'll be fine.  Hugs and congratulations.

Feeling sort of on edge, happy but not at the moment.

Seeing a proper gender therapist shortly and don't know what to expect.
It's making me quite anxious.
While I have no issues talking about who I am, as I darn well know, I am anxious about how he will see me?
My Dr has sent details too him so at least I don't need to break the ice, too hot for ice today.

I am anxious as I just don't know what the outcome will be.
I would like a bit of paper stating what I know I am and the ability to move forward to hormones via my doctor, who by the way is very nice and understanding.
So close yet so far away. It could be within a week or not this year.
Oh how I hate the wait???
I probably need to stop thinking about it but as you all know we can't.

3 more days.....

J

I was freaking out with the what ifs and other not so comfortable feelings before I got my first prescrip and up until about two months after taking them. Normal!

As determined as I am to transition when pill #1 was in my hand it sure looked as big as a car tire! 

It's exciting nervous anxious scary all rolled into one emotion. Hugs Shannon