I'm getting scared. I've lived in Portland Oregon for sixish years and we stand out less here than we have anywhere else, but we're still seen as such freaks and I want so badly to be normal.
I thought we'd be alright here. This place is so progressive.
I'm trans and I guess I'm gay but that's only because we define that by gender (I always liked men and as a man that's a different life than as a woman). I had a child at a young age, and it's just the two of us. We're atheists I guess, but that's only a big deal when people think it is. My daughter is half autistic and half ptsd (to greatly simplify it) and very, very loud.
We're not wanted here. People who share any particular attribute don't share the others, and this town isn't big enough to keep word from getting around about any given thing that happens within whatever community (gay, trans, mental health, autism, poverty, liberal activism, etc) and I'm too tired to keep up. I can't do spin and I can't play any part that will be visibly socially acceptable.
Anyway. I'm looking at NYC. I really really want to find a place where I don't stand out so much. Anywhere.
We've been in Portland longer than anywhere else. I've no hope for progress here.