last night I was up later wondering about all this trans thing. I honestly don't get why im trans,
why am I a guy? why cant I just be a girl?
I really dont have the answer and somethimes its getting me confussed and slithtly irritating that I dont even get it myself.
maybe its due to all this thinking I had a pretty wierd dream last night.
I where sitting on the computer with my dads phone doing something and someone kept complaining I did it wrong.
So I looked back and saw it where my moms friend which have been like an aunt for me since I where a kid.
I got very existed cause she died for 2 years ago of cancer. She called me by my old name and I had to explain to her that I had changed my name. as she asked why I had changed it I also had to explain to her that I had transitioned. I dont remember queit of what I said in our conversation but something the line with.
"you know I looked like a tomboy and I didnt want to be a tomboy isnt not how I feel I just wanna be a casual guy, I been taking testrostorone as well so I can make my look match up with my fellings"
She said to me I looked like a guy now, so it was pretty awsome thats she was accepting.
The next morning our door started to open and close randomly and my dad said there might be a ghost or something in the house so I told him about my dream that I had meet my moms friend cause she complained that I didnt use his iphone correct and he laugh saying its so typical her to correct everyone (she where a computer-tecnoligy nerd when she was alive)
Just feel like sharing my alittle uncommon comming out story.