Since coming out to my first friend (someone outside of my family) i really been thinking about it all. My sexual identity my gender indentity what i want out of life.

Its been almost two months since i came out to my sister about a year since i started questioning myself. And i think i've made it to a good place

Im really just fed up with being a girl. I want to be a man. I'm gonna be a man. Im done denying it, im gonna face my problem and stop procrastinating and get on with my life as i feel i should be. I will always have my parents love, i know they support me as does my sister and most likely the majority of my friends. I have been given the perfect set up for this, and i am so greatful.

I like women, i want a wife one day i want to wait for her by the alter. Wake up by her in the morning, protect her and treat her wonderfully and raise a family and grow old. And i want to be her husband.

Im done with this being a girl thing, its been fun but im done with it. And it took me this long to realize i've been done. Im ready. I can't just keep questioning i have to make a move, some progress something. If this turns out this isnt for me then fine i can go back before i make changes. But at this point im seeing it like, if i were a man would i want to be a woman and the answer is definitely no.

Sorry for the rant, this was kind of a big revelation that to me gets a little more solidified if i write it out.

That sounds like a lot of positive stuff. Well done.

When we start getting our head into that place it is time for the next step

Congrats Man.

Cindy

Thanks cindy

I've found some people kind of know right away, they say things like they didn't know they were trans because they always thought of themselves as male. There are others where they see a single episode of some show on TV and presto they realize it. But not everyone has the standard "trans narrative". I certainly had no idea. Even seeing and knowing about trans people didn't convince me I was trans. I went from questioning to genderqueer to transmale. I strongly identify as trans. and feel non-binary. The thing I never identified with was women, but maybe I did with "girl", I don't recall. I came out to my parents at age 7 though.


--Jay

You describing waiting for your wife at the alter, waking up to her every morning almost brought a tear to my eye.  I wish you all the luck in the world, as you are a very kind young man.