Hiie everyone, especially girls
Im new to this website, and im new to all of this is general.
So ill start off by introducing myself. My name is Michael, but obviously soon I will be changing to Meghan. I live in Citrus Heights, California, and Im 21. My whole life i have felt different and out of place and just about 5 years ago i came to terms with what was really going on. I am a beautiful, bubbly girl on the inside:) It feels so good to say that. So anyways, for the last 5 years I have done everything to try and push this feeling away because well Im not exactly sure... Ive put myself out there trying to be the manliest man and all ive gotten is sadness and being uncomfortable. About 2 months ago i had a really deep and meaningful spiritual experience and realized that I am who I am and I wasnt going to hide it anymore. Since that day I have been the happiest girl EVER!!! I feel like life has given me a brand new try, im young and have my whole life ahead of me. I told both my parents, my mom first and she was really shocked but there for me, and then my dad, who is supportive but very closed minded and i can tell it makes him really uncomfortable. I told my best friend who still loves me just as much. And i told my sponsor in AA, who also means the world to me. As for everyone else i have told, no one has had a negative reaction so far (crossing my fingers). After telling them, i found a doctor and a counselor at a Gender Health Center. The counselor has been amazing and the whole group there offers support groups and help:) And the doctor has been amazing as well:) I went in explained that ive been feeling like this my whole life and then went in for blood work. About 10 days later she called me and i went and picked up 2 prescriptions:) Ive read a lot here about people having to deal with tough standards of care and i guess i got lucky, but in any means i am absolutely and totally excited to start this new life/journey:) i started hrt on monday this week and as far as effects not much except for some mental changes which have been very minimal. So, i am still a boy and i think the biggest deal for me which i hope all you girls can help me with on here, is how to transition as far as clothing, talking, shopping, pretty much everything, i dont have any transgender friends yet:( and im kinda alone in this as far as what to do, im currently looking for another job because i install fire sprinklers, which for me is god awful:( i feel like a princess and im deff a very feminine girl so i cant be doing it anymoree. I want to grow my hair out but its pretty short right now and i dont know how to make that work for a while, like wear wigs or what? obviously im super excited but i have no idea what steps to take and when. i am also more than anything looking forward to meeting friends on here and to start feeling connected to what i believe in. <33333
