Thought I'd do an update. Even though it's only been a month, I've had some little changes. My nipples are definitely sensitive my left is a lot more than my right
No breast tissue yet but I feel I've gained weight in my chest maybe, I don't know. I just feel like there is more there than there used to be. Although up until around 32 I had no chest at ALL, so it could just be with age and have nothing to do with hormones. Because of my previous stint with HRT my nipples were already pretty female looking, and on top of that I've always had large nipples for a boy. I was hoping that the nipples would stay as is and just have more breast tissue. It seems though my nipples are a little more perkier, my husband did comment though that my nipples got less puffier than when we firsts met. Ironically we met just after I had stopped HRT
So I guess maybe they're just going back to what they were than.
TMI for me as I don't normally talk about these things lol, but still getting aroused. I don't know if it's just me being more aware or not, but I'm also much more of a cuddler now. I always was but I seem to be more into it lately.
I've been dressing way more femme in the last month. I even bought a pair of jeggings! I normally wear skinny jeans so not much of a stretch, but it is. I've been wearing oversize girly sweaters with them that go down to my thighs & wearing bangles and more jewelry. I now tote a real purse instead of a man bag and I love it! I started to wear my hair up in a French twist style with girls headbands until I grow my hair out. I switched from tennies to flats & slip ons which appear a lot more feminine. If you've seen pictures of me on here besides my profile picture I'm not shy about standing out. I never have been I've always had crazy or dramatic colored hair always wore makeup and painted my nails. As far as dress though I've never dressed as femme as I have been and it feels great to go out the way I want to dress and not really care or think about it.
Coworkers and friends have noticed I can tell, they say I look cute etc. but no one has said or asked anything yet. My sister who is basically my second mom (17 years older) came into my work the other day with my niece who is 18. At first I was like "Oh Sh!t"! and felt a little panicky. I had to remind myself that she was visiting me in my "world" it helped that I am the store manager so I used that to calm me down. I just thought about it as she was in my house. My family is very conservative they know for a fact I am NOT. So not a huge deal, but it's the most feminine she's ever seen me. Of course I over reacted she said nothing and we shopped and talked and everything was fine. When I go to her house I take it all off nail polish, makeup jewelry etc. Just because I've always felt really self conscious especially around my nieces and nephews. It's something I should never have done, sure tone it down but never should I have done it to the extent that I have. So now I have to deal with the possibility of looking dramatically different.
Btw is that super self conscious feeling of being too effeminate and feeling awkward about it gender dysphoria??
Anyway life is good I have a car again after 9 + years of bus riding (paid my dues in the green department
) I just got promoted to store manager, I'm being me for the first time in a looong time again 9+ years. So I feel really good just need to get my hair to grow faster and get rid of the damn beard and I'll be ecstatic!
