My young nephew is such a sweetheart.  He was eating a peanut butter cup and I told him if he if he ate too many of those his stomach would look like mine (huge) and he said I'm perfect just the way I am and that God made me this way.

Now I hope he doesn't have that same response in the future when I come out to him as trans.   

Quote from: Malachite on September 23, 2013, 01:50:59 AM
My young nephew is such a sweetheart.  He was eating a peanut butter cup and I told him if he if he ate too many of those his stomach would look like mine (huge) and he said I'm perfect just the way I am and that God made me this way.

Now I hope he doesn't have that same response in the future when I come out to him as trans.   

Awwwwww. That's so sweet. <3 Made my night.

Pre-T my emotions were always very close to the surface: I'd even cry during TV commercials. I hated being compelled to cry for the most ridiculous reasons because doing so made me feel disenfranchised, as if I was not allowed to be in charge of my own emotional state.

I'm only just into my 4th week of T, but already I've noticed a difference in my emotional reactions: I now seem to be able to control them much better.

Last night I watched a very moving documentary about a theatre group that supports children of all abilities (including a girl with cerebral palsy who walked across the stage with the help of her friends, after they lifted her out of her wheelchair). This is exactly the kind of story that would've had me bawling like a baby pre-T. I was touched by the story and my eyes moistened slightly, but the tears didn't actually fall. This seems to be my new 'norm' when I experience something that tugs on my heartstrings.

This is so liberating for me: I finally feel so normal.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 23, 2013, 09:35:42 AM
Pre-T my emotions were always very close to the surface: I'd even cry during TV commercials. I hated being compelled to cry for the most ridiculous reasons because doing so made me feel disenfranchised, as if I was not allowed to be in charge of my own emotional state.

I'm only just into my 4th week of T, but already I've noticed a difference in my emotional reactions: I now seem to be able to control them much better.

Last night I watched a very moving documentary about a theatre group that supports children of all abilities (including a girl with cerebral palsy who walked across the stage with the help of her friends, after they lifted her out of her wheelchair). This is exactly the kind of story that would've had me bawling like a baby pre-T. I was touched by the story and my eyes moistened slightly, but the tears didn't actually fall. This seems to be my new 'norm' when I experience something that tugs on my heartstrings.

This is so liberating for me: I finally feel so normal.

Not too strange really because I was just the opposite as my former self, emotionally unavailable because real men don't cry! Then several years of E and a sudden interest in "Chick Flicks" that had never been on my viewing roster before and I turned into a sob sister. It was embarrassing at first, but I have it under better control now and only get wet eyes. 

Told my dad about my self harming, and he didn't get mad or anything. Nor did he try to force me to tell him why. He just got worried and told me that its okay and gave me a hug.

You can't watch this without a straight face.  Second one is great too.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 23, 2013, 09:35:42 AM
Pre-T my emotions were always very close to the surface: I'd even cry during TV commercials. I hated being compelled to cry for the most ridiculous reasons because doing so made me feel disenfranchised, as if I was not allowed to be in charge of my own emotional state.

I'm only just into my 4th week of T, but already I've noticed a difference in my emotional reactions: I now seem to be able to control them much better.

Last night I watched a very moving documentary about a theatre group that supports children of all abilities (including a girl with cerebral palsy who walked across the stage with the help of her friends, after they lifted her out of her wheelchair). This is exactly the kind of story that would've had me bawling like a baby pre-T. I was touched by the story and my eyes moistened slightly, but the tears didn't actually fall. This seems to be my new 'norm' when I experience something that tugs on my heartstrings.

This is so liberating for me: I finally feel so normal.

I'm caught between you and Shantel (though moving in her direction). No HRT yet and I've found myself crying more, and I like it. I look forward to more of it.

I love how we're different than night and day, but totally understand what each other are talking about. Seriously awesome... and touching to me

I was ma'amed for the first time today.

My day off and it's a nice forecast an unseasonal 20 degrees expected

So after so many year I finally have an appointment with a gender therapist next week.
It is a major achievement for me.
It's been a hard slog emotionally to finally get this far but it is not as scary as I thought, we all think.

Not far away form the magic mushrooms.
Words can not describe how happy this make me feel.

J

Quote from: kabit on September 23, 2013, 08:11:29 PM
I'm caught between you and Shantel (though moving in her direction). No HRT yet and I've found myself crying more, and I like it. I look forward to more of it.

I love how we're different than night and day, but totally understand what each other are talking about. Seriously awesome... and touching to me

Isn't it wonderful when we finally start feeling more appropriate within ourselves? 

The British pharmacy & beauty chain, Boots, is running a promotion offering £5 discount vouchers off their No.7 skincare & make-up ranges. I've had to shop in Boots a lot lately so I've received about 10 of these... and naturally I've given all of them to my make-up crazy daughter, because it's not like I have any use for them.

So my daughter & I went shopping in Boots and we were stood side-by-side at the till to pay for a bunch of haircare stuff. But even though I was in charge of our end of the transaction, the cashier completely ignored me when she handed out the No.7 voucher. Instead, she addressed her sales spiel to my daughter.

I'm counting that as a pass.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 24, 2013, 04:29:26 AM
The British pharmacy & beauty chain, Boots, is running a promotion offering £5 discount vouchers off their No.7 skincare & make-up ranges. I've had to shop in Boots a lot lately so I've received about 10 of these... and naturally I've given all of them to my make-up crazy daughter, because it's not like I have any use for them.

So my daughter & I went shopping in Boots and we were stood side-by-side at the till to pay for a bunch of haircare stuff. But even though I was in charge of our end of the transaction, the cashier completely ignored me when she handed out the No.7 voucher. Instead, she addressed her sales spiel to my daughter.

I'm counting that as a pass.

That would be a pass, sometimes ignore-ance is bliss! 

Quote from: Shantel on September 24, 2013, 07:52:59 AM
That would be a pass, sometimes ignore-ance is bliss! 

Well, it certainly is in this instance! 

Today, all feel good stories & congrats to everyone. Shan good quip, "ignor-ance is bliss." lol

Quote from: Jamiep on September 24, 2013, 12:00:26 PM
Today, all feel good stories & congrats to everyone. Shan good quip, "ignor-ance is bliss." lol

Hah, at least you spelled it right!

I had a proper male haircut today. Okay maybe it's a bit too short, but the fact that it was male is enough, especially as I'm well known here and I wear an ID card every hour I'm awake so it rarely happens these days. I went in to the "hairdressers" (it's really a barbers because no girls trust them with their hair thinking it's just a navy place, but that's what the sign says) with my ID card turned over and I was nervous because she made conversation with me and hadn't to the guy before... until she started squaring off my sideburns. And it's great to have a haircut done by someone who's confident with using clippers at last. I even tipped her a couple of quid, and I'm stingy with my money and never know when to tip.

And I'm catering rep for my house here, the first time I've ever been voted in for anything. First task: stop having them serve us roast dinners every day of the week.

Quote from: AlexanderC on September 24, 2013, 03:35:39 PM
I had a proper male haircut today. Okay maybe it's a bit too short, but the fact that it was male is enough, especially as I'm well known here and I wear an ID card every hour I'm awake so it rarely happens these days. I went in to the "hairdressers" (it's really a barbers because no girls trust them with their hair thinking it's just a navy place, but that's what the sign says) with my ID card turned over and I was nervous because she made conversation with me and hadn't to the guy before... until she started squaring off my sideburns. And it's great to have a haircut done by someone who's confident with using clippers at last. I even tipped her a couple of quid, and I'm stingy with my money and never know when to tip.

And I'm catering rep for my house here, the first time I've ever been voted in for anything. First task: stop having them serve us roast dinners every day of the week.

Good job Alexander, obviously the stylist (barber) didn't clock you, sounds like you're on a roll there!

Home pedicure! [Priced] Better than the real thing!

And new microphone... get ready to hear my voice, girls!

And... I listen to OutQ sometimes on SiriusXM (for a week or two now). Ariel, Sebastian, and the Cook (why Cook?) were interviewed. I love that movie... she's the sort of princess I am: doesn't want to be who she was assigned at birth. I'm thinking of working on my voice patterned after hers.

Got a date,the first in 2 years!