Quote from: Akira21 ♡♡♡ on September 23, 2013, 04:52:07 PM
Was just the first on scene at a road traffic accident that happened in front of me. I went to try and help, but he was clearly, not living anymore. The ambulance called him on arrival. :-/ Kinda feeling... yeah ....   :-/

These things always leave one with a hollow feeling...Hugs

Quote from: Akira21 ♡♡♡ on September 23, 2013, 04:52:07 PM
Was just the first on scene at a road traffic accident that happened in front of me. I went to try and help, but he was clearly, not living anymore. The ambulance called him on arrival. :-/ Kinda feeling... yeah ....   :-/

Unfortunately, I am familiar with that feeling

Hugs

Quote from: Akira21 ♡♡♡ on September 23, 2013, 04:52:07 PM
Was just the first on scene at a road traffic accident that happened in front of me. I went to try and help, but he was clearly, not living anymore. The ambulance called him on arrival. :-/ Kinda feeling... yeah ....   :-/

*hugs tight*

Armpit is getting irritated again

Had my endo appointment. Alas, more gatekeeping ahead. 

Before getting a scrip, apparantly, I have to sit before a jury of specialists.

Nooooooo I screwed up a mission in GTA V that led to me rage quitting.

Had a terrible night's sleep because a) I've injured my left knee, which made it difficult for me to find a comfortable position, and b) I've managed to get a nasty infection near my belly button, and due to the very thin skin I have on my abdomen it feels like I've been burned. Ugh. Anyone want to go get me a strong coffee?

Also, my kids are getting ornery again.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on September 24, 2013, 04:01:52 AM
Had a terrible night's sleep because a) I've injured my left knee, which made it difficult for me to find a comfortable position, and b) I've managed to get a nasty infection near my belly button, and due to the very thin skin I have on my abdomen it feels like I've been burned. Ugh. Anyone want to go get me a strong coffee?

Also, my kids are getting ornery again.

Here's a Starbucks, now go beat those kids! 

Yay - thanks Auntie Shan!

Oh, kiiiiids.... 

Paying £4.10 for a bottle of strawberry and lime cider in a bar.The owner drives a Rolls Royce!

A monthly issue that led to horrible dysphoria, and made me start thinking about all of the negatives in my life such as not having a job, which meant that I wouldn't be able to save up for therapy. However... Something good did happen today, after the hours of depression! 

Quote from: Malachite on September 24, 2013, 03:58:31 AM
Nooooooo I screwed up a mission in GTA V that led to me rage quitting.

You're lucky that was the worst that happened with GTA V, I traded in 5 games to get my copy & then today I tripped over the keyboard cable whilst the disc was running, it jolted my 360 & damaged the disc so badly it wont load anymore!!
I don't have any more money to replace it & not enough games left to trade in so will have to go without until I get more money in 10 days time 

My dad was mean to me on the internet. He doesn't know me very well, and if he loves me at all it's as an abstraction, a character in a story. I'm not playing the role right.

One of my colleagues has a filthy habit of coughing openly (without covering her mouth) when she's sick. She's just come back from a business trip today... and she seems to have picked up a bug while she was away. So now she's coughing her lungs up all over the office.

Ugh. It's only a matter of time until I catch whatever this is. Dirty girl! 

What made me unhappy this morning is the thought of all the work it'll take to go from female to male, even before I have surgery or anything. It's scary and daunting, the task of becoming male, and yet, I have no choice. Even if it took the rest of my life, I' do it. Better to die on the right path than live my entire life on the wrong one.

So, I guess it's not really unhappiness, but me being scared and intimidated But it feels like unhappiness, anyway. I wish I could snap my fingers and make myself a man, but I have a feeling all that scary stuff that has me down is the necessary stuff, too, to get my head in the right space.

I'll let the unhappiness or whatever hang around for another hour or two, but then it'll be time to start the day and I'll kick it to the curb and try to look on the bright side: at least I finally figured out what was wrong with me since forever. I know why I never felt like a "woman" but like some male brain stashed in a female jar.

Happy thoughts . . . happy thoughts. . . .

Hooray for most things. xD

You'll be okay. Says I. I don't know. But gosh all the awful that exists in the world, all of it got kinder and calmer and more manageable when I finally transitioned. Your mileage may vary.

My toilet has been clogged for two days straight and I have done almost everything short of chemicals. At first it was draining slightly, but now, the crappy water can be left overnight and not a bit will drain. It is 100% clogged. Last night I spent an hour cleaning dirty water of the floor because I turned off the water for the toilet, which led to the tank draining into the bowl and nothing would stop it so it just overflowed big time. AND THE BOWL STILL WON'T DRAIN. 

I am also sleep deprived and grumpy.

I'm in a craftswap (we make things for eachother and then send it) and I think I was stupid. My partner sent me this message asking me what name to use on the package since I change my username on the site (to someting more male) and I realised I changed my gender too and she could see that so I ended up writing that she could choose between 'birthname' and Nathan because I preffered Nathan now but she didn't have to use that if she didn't want to. Now I need her adress and tommorow I have to sent and she still hasn't answered, I think i might have misjudged her question and this swap is going to be ruined because I couldn't keep quite for once...

Craigslist deal apparantly fell through....

That awful moment when some gay guy completely ignores and dismisses you, because he moves in LGBT circles and has seen plenty of butch lesbians... so when he sees your too-female features he thinks 'meh, butch lesbian' and treats you like an irrelevance.