Stuck in bed today, don't think I will make it out of the house.  Spent all morning crying even though I'm supposed to take my roommate to DMV which is over an hour ago.  I'm really tired of being called a ->-bleeped-<- by people who say they are my friends. And I'm tired of being laughed at for trying to establish an emotional connection with another person. I'm so tired of forcing myself to behave in a way thats just not natural to me for the sake of being able to earn a meager living.

I really just wanna go to sleep and dream forever,  at least there I can be who I am.

I'm very sorry Sophie and can easily relate.  I know what it's like to be called a ->-bleeped-<- and much worse.  It really sucks and is even worse when it comes from those we love like family and friends.  However, as much as want to let it defeat us, we can't let it do that.  If you don't get out of bed, you will never get to live the dream.  Bullies shouldn't determine our destiny.  I can't say I have the strategy to overcome that stuff, as I struggle myself and could use this very same talk, but we can't let it cripple us, at least not forever. 

Hoping you have a better day tomorrow. 

BIG HUG!!!! We will all make it together! Just remember, we all have support here and ARE family! A really big family of over 7,000! Take that bullies. We are strong together so, go soak in a nice bubble bath and let the stress and bad stuff melt away.