Quote from: izzy on October 05, 2013, 03:27:30 PM
just too many things to do around my house.

Right there with ya.

Just got wind that Kimber James is post-op now. All those hateful comments now from closeted homos... It only makes more clear  my decission about going through the path of SRS.

Which by the way, as time goes by my GID finally extended to genitalia. At first I could tolerate it, but when things advanced...

In the last weeks I've been nearly in regression. Due to all the stress and depression, I ended going back to male mode (Going as female still gives me aditional psychological stress), and with time, I was relapsing to male pronouns and my old name. Now that I am "back", it's going to take me a few days to change back. And I have a full basket of bras to handwash as soon as tomorrow use my last one at the gym.

Quote from: Darkie on October 05, 2013, 03:36:08 PM
Right there with ya.

I have to shovel tens of feet of dirt to get my trees in from the other property and then I have to lug many items from other house. its physically exhausting.

Quote from: Liam Erik on October 05, 2013, 02:51:31 PM
I don't like hearing about things or seeing things that 'used to be.'  Hey, remember when you ____?  Yeah, that caused me pain (or) I did that because I was in pain.

But I feel I have no right to tell my family to forget things ever happened, because their memories are positive and valuable to them.

I'm being hypersensitive right now.  I need to establish a good rapid calm-down protocol, like a cup of cocoa and watch Supernatural until I fall asleep.  That has potential.

I can not stand being reminded of my past too, its of something i like to avoid.

Apparently nobody thought this thread was worth continuing

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,22116.0.html

Can't people close their windows to have sex? Specially when they are so noisy? The only thing I'm missing this morning is the Tarzan shout. Seriously, there are people like me we hate  being reminded that there is something called sex...

That horrible feeling whre I can feel my phantom limb acting up and wanting attention....but it's not there because it's a phantom limb and it's driving me insane.  I HATE that I was born a biological female.  The only thing I can do now is try and go to sleep and hope my "drive" goes down.  That is just horrible and I shouldn't have to go through this.  Why couldn't I have just been born a cismale so I could take care of the problem easily? -sigh- 

Meh

Quote from: <3 on October 05, 2013, 11:47:39 PM
Apparently nobody thought this thread was worth continuing

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,22116.0.html

Best to start a new one.  In fact, let's do it!

looking down,,,,

Quote from: shiriru on October 06, 2013, 09:19:57 AM
looking down,,,,

Then look up to the stars!

My brother made my mom cry today. My mom NEVER cries. I won't post everything he said, just the parts that upset her the most.

She asked him to help her out because she broke her arm a few days ago. and out of nowhere, he pointed at me and called me the c-word (yes, the really bad one). I pointed at him and told him to NEVER call me that again. My mom told him not to, and he went on saying "you brought this on yourself mom, this is why no one helps you, mom." She cried because she said she is doing as much, if not more, than she usually does because she has to take a month off work (her arm is an unstable fracture). And she only needs help with things that absolutely needs two hands and she is sick of waiting for him to finish with video games before coming to help her with a small thing. My dad avoids helping too, I'm the only one who helps. Then she said "when I am better, you and your dad can live here. No one needs me."

Truthfully, I wanted to punch a hole into a wall and throw something at the jerk's head. But I didn't, I went into another room and cooled off, because I knew if I flew off the handle my mom would cry more.

She came downstairs later and said to me "I'm sorry for creating a dysfunctional family." I went upstairs to comfort her and tell her that she was a good mom, but she kept saying "no, I brought this on myself, it's my fault. All I wanted was to clear the backyard before the snows comes so the mice don't hide by the house." Then she sat alone in the dark and cried more for I don't know how long.

My heart is broken. My mom deserves SO much better than that. I am sick of my brother being an ungrateful jerk! My mom always takes his side and gives him everything and he treats her like a taxi service, nothing more. Apparently he apologized, but I don't care. I am so angry at him, and now that I'm alone, I'm crying for my mom.

Tomorrow I have to be at uni early, but I will be coming home as soon as I can to help her with the yardwork. I have a ton of deadlines that I'll probably miss, as tomorrow was meant to be the "get my butt in gear" day, but I don't care. Family comes first, and I won't have my mom feeling neglected, or hurting her arm further and needing surgery because she tries to do it alone.

If I were his father, his video games would be GONE the second it takes precedence over helping his injured mother. But they aren't going to punish him in any way, shape, or form. He got away with it and he will continue to. I hope reality gives this kid a hard beating.

Quote from: caleb. on October 07, 2013, 03:49:39 AM
My brother made my mom cry today. My mom NEVER cries. I won't post everything he said, just the parts that upset her the most.

She asked him to help her out because she broke her arm a few days ago. and out of nowhere, he pointed at me and called me the c-word (yes, the really bad one). I pointed at him and told him to NEVER call me that again. My mom told him not to, and he went on saying "you brought this on yourself mom, this is why no one helps you, mom." She cried because she said she is doing as much, if not more, than she usually does because she has to take a month off work (her arm is an unstable fracture). And she only needs help with things that absolutely needs two hands and she is sick of waiting for him to finish with video games before coming to help her with a small thing. My dad avoids helping too, I'm the only one who helps. Then she said "when I am better, you and your dad can live here. No one needs me." I'd jerk the rug out from under that ingrate, his xbox would be gone and he'd either be living in the street or get his butt in gear and get upwardly mobile in a hurry. I raised two boys and occasionally you have to serve up a lot of tough love to get their attention.

Truthfully, I wanted to punch a hole into a wall and throw something at the jerk's head. But I didn't, I went into another room and cooled off, because I knew if I flew off the handle my mom would cry more. Not the wall, he's overdue for a knuckle sandwich.

She came downstairs later and said to me "I'm sorry for creating a dysfunctional family." I went upstairs to comfort her and tell her that she was a good mom, but she kept saying "no, I brought this on myself, it's my fault. All I wanted was to clear the backyard before the snows comes so the mice don't hide by the house." Then she sat alone in the dark and cried more for I don't know how long. She needn't take responsibility for their behavior, it's not her fault that they are selfish jerks.

My heart is broken. My mom deserves SO much better than that. I am sick of my brother being an ungrateful jerk! My mom always takes his side and gives him everything and he treats her like a taxi service, nothing more. Apparently he apologized, but I don't care. I am so angry at him, and now that I'm alone, I'm crying for my mom. Hugs to both of you hon, you don't need to allow it to keep going on.

Tomorrow I have to be at uni early, but I will be coming home as soon as I can to help her with the yardwork. I have a ton of deadlines that I'll probably miss, as tomorrow was meant to be the "get my butt in gear" day, but I don't care. Family comes first, and I won't have my mom feeling neglected, or hurting her arm further and needing surgery because she tries to do it alone.

If I were his father, his video games would be GONE the second it takes precedence over helping his injured mother. But they aren't going to punish him in any way, shape, or form. He got away with it and he will continue to. I hope reality gives this kid a hard beating. He'd better or he's abdicating his duty as a father, I don't give a rip about nanny state rules of discipline either, that boy needs his ass kicked.

It bugs me when things that claim to be for mental health awareness solely talk about mood disorders. Why don't they fight the stigma against personality disorders that suffer stigma even within the mental health community and system? Why don't they fight the stigma of schizo spectrum disorders which are still socially acceptable to mock? But no, all they talk about are mood disorders. They should change the name to mood disorder awareness.

You're right Shan...my brother *can* be good sometimes, but honestly, he needs that little extra push. Especially at the moment, with his crappy attitude.  What baffles me is they had no problem punishing me as a teenager, or my other brother (well, they more just said hurtful things but still). But this one, meh, he can apparently just do whatever the hell he wants. And because he's been babied his entire life, he's ungrateful.

I'm sick of people who stop talking to me with some bs excuse that I'm mad at them. At least come up with a better excuse than telling me what I'm feeling without actually asking me.

Quote from: Edge on October 07, 2013, 08:37:35 PM
I'm sick of people who stop talking to me with some bs excuse that I'm mad at them. At least come up with a better excuse than telling me what I'm feeling without actually asking me.

*hugs* I'm sorry.

Quote from: caleb. on October 07, 2013, 06:13:37 PM
You're right Shan...my brother *can* be good sometimes, but honestly, he needs that little extra push. Especially at the moment, with his crappy attitude.  What baffles me is they had no problem punishing me as a teenager, or my other brother (well, they more just said hurtful things but still). But this one, meh, he can apparently just do whatever the hell he wants. And because he's been babied his entire life, he's ungrateful.

Unfortunately they have just enabled him to be a turd!

Quote from: Shantel on October 07, 2013, 09:27:25 AM
(Shan's comments to Caleb)

I would go even further.  Take the Xbox away tonight and hide it until the yard is cleaned up.  Stand your ground.  Help your mom out.

Quote from: caleb. on October 07, 2013, 03:49:39 AM
My brother made my mom cry today. My mom NEVER cries. I won't post everything he said, just the parts that upset her the most.

She asked him to help her out because she broke her arm a few days ago. and out of nowhere, he pointed at me and called me the c-word (yes, the really bad one). I pointed at him and told him to NEVER call me that again. My mom told him not to, and he went on saying "you brought this on yourself mom, this is why no one helps you, mom." She cried because she said she is doing as much, if not more, than she usually does because she has to take a month off work (her arm is an unstable fracture). And she only needs help with things that absolutely needs two hands and she is sick of waiting for him to finish with video games before coming to help her with a small thing. My dad avoids helping too, I'm the only one who helps. Then she said "when I am better, you and your dad can live here. No one needs me."

Truthfully, I wanted to punch a hole into a wall and throw something at the jerk's head. But I didn't, I went into another room and cooled off, because I knew if I flew off the handle my mom would cry more.

She came downstairs later and said to me "I'm sorry for creating a dysfunctional family." I went upstairs to comfort her and tell her that she was a good mom, but she kept saying "no, I brought this on myself, it's my fault. All I wanted was to clear the backyard before the snows comes so the mice don't hide by the house." Then she sat alone in the dark and cried more for I don't know how long.

My heart is broken. My mom deserves SO much better than that. I am sick of my brother being an ungrateful jerk! My mom always takes his side and gives him everything and he treats her like a taxi service, nothing more. Apparently he apologized, but I don't care. I am so angry at him, and now that I'm alone, I'm crying for my mom.

Tomorrow I have to be at uni early, but I will be coming home as soon as I can to help her with the yardwork. I have a ton of deadlines that I'll probably miss, as tomorrow was meant to be the "get my butt in gear" day, but I don't care. Family comes first, and I won't have my mom feeling neglected, or hurting her arm further and needing surgery because she tries to do it alone.

If I were his father, his video games would be GONE the second it takes precedence over helping his injured mother. But they aren't going to punish him in any way, shape, or form. He got away with it and he will continue to. I hope reality gives this kid a hard beating.

Sounds like your brother needs to receive a free testicle lift via a foot exam for being a absolute uncaring turd. Sorry to say harsh words about him but really he needs a good attitude readjustment. I understand completely how it feels to have a sibling who makes their parent suffer from their actions.

Quote from: Jamie de la Rosa on October 07, 2013, 09:04:54 PM
I would go even further.  Take the Xbox away tonight and hide it until the yard is cleaned up.  Stand your ground.  Help your mom out.

That might backfire.  If he goes to mom screaming and asking where his xbox is and she doesn't know, chances are he's going to know who took it and that could get messy.

On another site a lesbian woman said she was going to make a NALT video because "the hatred has to stop" by that next week.  Well a couple of weeks went by and I asked if she had made tht video yet because I would love to see it but she never replied (I asked twice) yet she replied to another post in a forum.  That sucks. :/