Nidalexa, i tried to explain what i meant there with the male personality "deletion" in the other thread. From you description you already did that. It is that moment you just stop showing the paint and just be yourself, however tomboyish that is. It is not about getting rid of stereotypical masculine behaviours but to get rid of the automatic pattern to pretend one is a guy. I think for us on the young side this is easier as it did not have that much time to become automatic. Still, if that "deletion" happens it is more or less instant. It is the short moment you think " f that ->-bleeped-<-, i am not playing that male game anymore" and then everything falls into place. It is not an effort really, more a thing of faith, which is what made me cringe at readin that one has to "work hard to become a woman in spirit". No, one does not. It comes by itself once one lezts go of the facade. If it is hard, one may be doing it wrong and is trying to build up a new female facade in place of the old male one. Thats not the goal. The goal is to tear down that facade and just show yourself, just as you said.
Tgd. I sure hope there will be more of your comics, they are so spot on, i have to fight the urge at times to use them as memes when someone writes about something in the chat that just is like in the comic. I understand well the willpower to postpone to crumble, and its ok. For me it was literally almost 2 years of thinking that i better postpone it, find more info on surgeons, get more sure about myself, try be non op, no need to rush. And then it broke through-the desire to just do it that was burning under the surface all the time. I freaked out with dysphoria and got drunk that night. I made the appointment and date soon after that decisive day. My willpower sucks, but wth it was the best time to do it as i was simply ready for it and as a result i do not even regret the bad stuff that happened with srs - it sucked, but as i was in a state of really needing this, i had no regrets. If i postponed any longer, i might have had nore unrealistic hopes or would have blamed myself if sometjing went wrong.