I confess...

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I think I'm a fake.  That I'm not really transgender or genderfluid and that I'm just a confused girl who just needs to be locked up in a nuthouse.  I can't shake off what my friend said to me tonight about how she thinks I just say that for attention.  The more I sit here the more it plays in my head.

Quote from: Darkie on October 12, 2013, 11:28:22 PM
I confess...

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I think I'm a fake.  That I'm not really transgender or genderfluid and that I'm just a confused girl who just needs to be locked up in a nuthouse.  I can't shake off what my friend said to me tonight about how she thinks I just say that for attention.  The more I sit here the more it plays in my head.

The emboldened part of your quote... that doesn't make it true, sweetie. You know yourself better than anyone else knows you. And you always will.

*big hug*

Often, people who tell us we do things for attention are just envious because as a byproduct of the truth, we sometimes get it. It says more about them than about you.

Quote from: Sephirah on October 12, 2013, 11:34:23 PM
The emboldened part of your quote... that doesn't make it true, sweetie. You know yourself better than anyone else knows you. And you always will.

*big hug*

Often, people who tell us we do things for attention are just envious because as a byproduct of the truth, we sometimes get it. It says more about them than about you.

What if she is right? What if I'm just messed up in the head?  I am timid and I don't act all "manly man" when I'm presenting male.  Because of her telling me this, I don't feel comfortable dressing male at conventions, which was my only place I could.  I can wear androgynous clothes to school, but it isn't the same.  I've lost what I thought was my safe haven.

Quote from: Darkie on October 12, 2013, 11:38:49 PM
What if she is right? What if I'm just messed up in the head?  I am timid and I don't act all "manly man" when I'm presenting male.  Because of her telling me this, I don't feel comfortable dressing male at conventions, which was my only place I could.  I can wear androgynous clothes to school, but it isn't the same.  I've lost what I thought was my safe haven.

Well, if she's right, what's the worst thing that can happen?

Quote from: Malachite on October 12, 2013, 11:44:36 PM
Well, if she's right, what's the worst thing that can happen?

That everything about my personality and who I am is a lie.

Quote from: Darkie on October 12, 2013, 11:38:49 PM
What if she is right? What if I'm just messed up in the head?  I am timid and I don't act all "manly man" when I'm presenting male.  Because of her telling me this, I don't feel comfortable dressing male at conventions, which was my only place I could.  I can wear androgynous clothes to school, but it isn't the same.  I've lost what I thought was my safe haven.

Okay, let me ask you a question.

Suppose you were the only person on a desert island. There was no one else around you for a thousand miles. And with you on this island was everything you needed to present as male. Absolutely everything. Would you do it?

Quote from: Sephirah on October 12, 2013, 11:56:55 PM
Okay, let me ask you a question.

Suppose you were the only person on a desert island. There was no one else around you for a thousand miles. And with you on this island was everything you needed to present as male. Absolutely everything. Would you do it?

Yes. 

Quote from: Darkie on October 13, 2013, 12:01:19 AM
Yes. 

Right. Then what your friend said was incorrect, sweetie. Simple as that. You still want to be yourself, regardless of who does or doesn't see. That isn't doing it for attention. It's doing it to be you.

Also, for what it's worth, quite a lot of guys don't act like "manly men", unless they're surrounded by others acting like "manly men" and trying to show off. That is in no way a reflection on what sort of a guy you are. You're your own person. Always will be. Act the way that's true to you.

Quote from: Darkie on October 12, 2013, 11:56:05 PM
That everything about my personality and who I am is a lie.

Well do you think you're doing it for attention?

Quote from: Malachite on October 13, 2013, 12:07:34 AM
Well do you think you're doing it for attention?

No...

Quote from: Darkie on October 13, 2013, 12:25:03 AM
No...

Then what that person says is invalid.

Quote from: Jamie de la Rosa on October 12, 2013, 03:44:36 AM
Hold your head high!  Good luck.

In confess I enjoyed my reunion. There weren't many from the class '88, maybe about 7 of us. No one batted an eye when they called us up for a group picture, and a woman joined the group of Serra men...



My, how I've changed.

I confess that I'm shallow when it comes to looks in a relationship and I don't care if anyone judges me for it. I am not obligated to consider dating everyone just because I like them, I want to be with a reasonably attractive man close enough to my age AND with a great personality or not at all.

Quote from: <3 on October 13, 2013, 04:07:26 AM
I am attracted to transgender women that don't "pass" and especially ones with a male voice...

Would like to meet you,I sound like Lemmy from Motorhead!

I have never been able to BBQ that pile of MLP G4 stuff I tell to people I already got rid off. If somebody asks me about MLP I act as if was something I barely heard in the 80's.

Quote from: Apple Sprout on October 13, 2013, 07:40:13 AM
I have never been able to BBQ that pile of MLP G4 stuff I tell to people I already got rid off. If somebody asks me about MLP I act as if was something I barely heard in the 80's.

...I love Gen 1.  Firefly and Bowtie forever.

I confess I'm playing GTA V.

I confess I am watching clips of Toph from Avatar even though I never watched enough for her to be on the show when I was watching it.  I just love Toph.

I confess that I really don't care about much other than video games.

Double confession not only did I tell my sister Bird's Eye fish fingers were really made from bird's eyes but I also posted it in the wrong section