I like the hair too.

I agree, you are a strong woman.

Hi Lesley,

My apologies for the late entrance.

You look a lot better than I expected. The wig is good, the fitting and cut suits you, congratulations to you and to Chris.

Yes a nice blouse etc would help but get another woman to help you with styling if you can. It takes practice to select clothes that suit you, and not clothes you want!! I remember my hairdresser telling me that girls withdraw to their bedroom at 13 and come out at 17 with all the skills to present. They told me they would try to help me to catch up the time I had lost! It has been a tough task for them

I'm sorry dinner and stuff fell through but try not to read stuff in to it. Life happens to everyone.

You have made enormous strides and you should be very proud of yourself, and of your family and friends.

At our age we have to over come the 'Oh Goddess' factor of why we didn't do this years ago before our bodies changed. But they have and we have to accept that with the understanding that maturity can give us. You have all the potential to be a normal attractive woman.

You are blessed, as I am for knowing you.

You are very cute.

Hugs my Canadian Sister

Cindy

i didn't realize it was a wig until i read your post. you look really good, and i can understand why you call the shirt good despite it not being female clothing, the color suits you.

sorry about the dinner. don't take it too hard, i've managed to ruin family dinners all on my own, but that still wasn't the end of the world. things have actually only gotten better for me since then.

Thanks Cindy and everyone.

Cute? Ok I have been told I was cute before in male mode, I think people are nuts Oh well I suppose I am just conditioned to be incapable of regarding myself like that

My sister, didn't like the hair. My sister though and me are close, so she's likely just not liking the look. She probably thinks I need something else. Might be she just wants her 'brother' back too I guess. She's my kid sister though, and has made a habit of looking out for me for years since I was disabled and effectively made a financial wreck. Many a day she'd force a 20 on me and tell me I need money in my pocket to feel better. So my sister gets a lot more leeway than many likely ever will.

My older brother has not seen the look. Heck he likely won't see me till next May at my niece's wedding. I'm hoping nothing mars my going of course. I might just plain not have the cash. Mom fully expects to be going though (and her health is a higher wall to cross than my finances ever will be). I am assuming if she is going it is by way of a car ride. If she goes I go. My brother is concerned I don't do anything too outrageous to attract harmful responses. He has not been told I have elected to go the whole route seeing as OHIP will permit it.

With some luck, I will have the wig down pat and make up learned by then. I would absolutely love to go in a proper dress. Doubt I can afford a proper dress, but I likely should go in a nicer pant suit and not be too radical. Most of the family have only seen me carrying a purse and wearing a necklace at mom's 80th birthday party.

I have seen quite a few miracles around here with girls realizing their potential. Nothing improves a face like a real smile either.
I like to think I can at least look a bit better once I learn make up. I suppose it is going to be a high wall for me though. I'm not worried about what others will say with me wearing lipstick, I'm concerned about my own negative opinion. Starting to see who my son got his perfectionist anger from hehe.

Today is just a meal at mom's with wife and son. I am hoping though it goes ok.

Mom was NOT happy with how her child was treated yesterday. I explained it to the wife thusly, how would you react, if the family told YOUR son he was not welcome because of his appearance? I was a bit annoyed her response was not instantaneous too. I told her the correct response was instant motherly anger. So I warned her, my mom might not be too pleasant discussing the subject and her feelings towards wife's side of the family. I quote "narrow minded bigots and not real Christians".

I hope the only task today, is to keep mom calm
She was almost wanting to not invite the wife. I told her no, I told her expressly I was not going to make her pick and choose family over this matter. I don't hold fault with people that didn't make the choice.

Bit annoyed though, that she elected to avoid discussing the ramifications of my not being there today with her sister. She claimed the little ones were present. I told her I didn't give a damn, the little ones need to see what a little genuine fury looks like. As it now stands, the brother in law doesn't exist, nor the sisters in law and other brother in law nor their sons and daughters and their sons and daughters. There won't be any Auntie Lesley or Great Auntie Lesley coming to anything further till this is resolved with a FIRM understanding that I am not anyone's brother in law or uncle for a reason.

Either way, yesterday I needed lunch as I suddenly had nothing prepared. So I went and visited the local grocery I always go to. Was glad it was open (Canadian holiday weekend here eh). And I had no trouble going as I looked. I suspect a chuckle from the cashier next to the lane I was at might have been for me. But the woman and I have a history of banter. She's a rough, seemingly rude woman of older years that knows I don't mind the silly smack talk. Others have been 'you let her say that to you?'. Just about the entire staff though have known me for years as a regular. They all know my son as they have watched him grow from a bundle to a tree. I go in and out of the store all the time.

Looking forward to tomorrow though first day I can walk the town with the new look and show it to my friends in person. Nothing is open currently.

My only concern, is the wig has not easy means of attachment. I'm suspecting I exceed the size tolerance level almost. Not totally sure, I know there are two small ribbons on the sides, and I almost wonder, were they meant to go under the ear? (sounds idiotic though). Or just a means to hold it while adjusting it. Thinking of attaching an elastic ribbon attached from front left temple and front right temple and tied behind back of the neck as a sort of hat strap which would be hidden under the hair.

Failing that, also pondered something not unlike this.
It seems to be a ribbon tied at the back to look at it, while in cosplay the girls are all just wearing a conventional hair comb with ribbons attached. I'd be aiming for the ribbon tied actually. Not sure how it would look on me though Been a long dream of mine to cosplay Haruhi Suzumiya.

Since plenty has already been said about the subject of the photo, I will say I like the pictures in the background.

That would be about hmmm 1 ten thousandth of my collection from my father actually My father took incredible amounts of photos with an archaic German camera (had bellows in it). No training and often in positions of extreme skill required.

My brother is a journalist and did NOT inherit any of Dad's camera savvy either hehe.

Only recently cleaned up the hobby room (where the picture was taken).

Wow, that's quite interesting!  I was primarily interested in the subject matter of the photos.  From personal experience it takes a brave man to show any serious interest in railroads because it's 'the wrong kind of geeky'.  Now as a woman I'm even more at war on the inside about showing it, even more so than telling people I'm trans, oddly enough.  I did however recently see a posting on AutoStraddle.com where a number of queer girls were raving about their delight in traveling by train and my heart was thoroughly melting for them!

norwegian tv made a ten hours long film of my favorite railroad for last christmas.
http://nrkbeta.no/2013/01/15/nordlandsbanen-minute-by-minute-season-by-season/

Trains, the models for people that think cars too 'boyish' and trucks are right obviously boyish, and war machines, well not everyone likes war machines I suppose.

Trains are just trains eh, they made the nation (Canada or the US). My town grew thanks to trains.

And you can play with them too (my other models just sit there).

Models appeal to me, it is a creation thing, I prefer to be making things, and making things is a feminine thing eh, mothers make things, kids for instance

Boys always seem to be about breaking things, bones, cars etc etc

Quote from: Lesley_Roberta on October 12, 2013, 03:18:13 PM
Ok people here is a RARE moment, a VERY rare moment, because I am VERY sensitive about putting my image online anywhere.

But I want to honour those that have shared so much so far, with at least this much.

Took this today, cropped out all the noise of the hobby room from the image. I'm wearing one of my current needs to be replaced male polo tshirts which is being replaced with better ones made for a woman, but its at least a nice shirt all the same. Wearing one of my more substantial necklaces.

And assuming Cindy sees my Facebook comment, I won't need to fret over sending her something through here (promised Cindy she would get to see the benefits of her generous offer of sending me a wig a good while back).

The wig is basically modified from its original form to fit my own particular requirements. My hair stylist greatly aided me in enjoying the experience. I just went with her opinion (as if I know a lot about hair styles ).
This by the way is me mentioning now, Chris's Hair World in Lindsay Ontario, a place where the ladies go, and you can assume transwomen will have no issues as well. The staff are friends of mine, long time contact with Chris. She has earned my respect today.

My natural hair was given a significant update, I had been wearing it rather long and more or less unkempt, and futile too really what with having nothing on the top. Now my natural hair is cut more or less in a cliche male fashion (which is what my hair has always looked like the moment it needs a trim). I have no real desperate need of keeping all of it, the wig has superseded it.

If the wig is from Australia, shouldn't the hair point the other direction?

Quote from: Lesley_Roberta on October 14, 2013, 11:00:40 AM
Models appeal to me, it is a creation thing, I prefer to be making things, and making things is a feminine thing eh, mothers make things, kids for instance

Boys always seem to be about breaking things, bones, cars etc etc

mnya... i've also known men who are awesome at creating all kinds of things and art, and some could even help make cute babies. and women who seemed rather intent on breaking their families and other things. like cars, i don't see anything masculine about breaking them.
but it's a good excuse for doing what you want. my daughter doesn't think it's weird for a girl to make models of cool vehicles.

So the post dinner report is in........

Dinner was good, wife and a friend and mom and myself all enjoyed a nice meal.

I spent afternoon hanging out with mom, was not interested in getting into anything prior to dinner time so went ahead early.

Only downside, my new top, just doesn't seem to really perform in the absence of breasts. Which sucks of course. But I was given positive replies to my new look from the shoulders up

I can run with that