Hi I'm Karly. I am new to all this: posting, earnestly studying about the topic, planning to seriously dress, and attempting to get connected with a support group. However the feelings aren't new. They've always been with me. I am now emboldened because I just took the BIG step. I told my wife!
She has known for a couple of years that I have had a desire to dress, but thought it was just to dabble with heels, stockings and panties once in a while to spice up our sex life. She painted my toenails regularly last winter and even bought me a pair of heels and panties for my birthday. The problem was that she only wanted me to wear my heels occasionally. I think her fear was that my desire for sex would occur only if I could dress in heels and stockings. Her attitude last year was one of toleration rather than acceptance. When it became clear that I wanted to dress not only for sex, but also casually, her feelings of emphatic non-acceptance emerged. Shortly after that, I continued to explore the issue by telling her that I wanted to wear my panties underneath my regular clothes as we were dressing to go to dinner. At that point, she became frightened, filled with doubt and became despondent; the usual feelings that a wife displays when facing coming out. I sort of went back in the closet after that, but wore the heels and stockings while having sex once on our vacation. That went well.
A couple of days ago I told my wife how strong was my desires to "dress", not just superficially, but to dress well; to go all out with excellence. I told her that I want to wear make-up, a wig, sexy outfits, jewelry, breast forms, and to shave my body smooth. I told her that my feminine side was part of me and that I want and need her help to be a beautiful woman. I told her that I'm not planning on becoming a full time woman, and I love being a man. I assured her again that I'm not gay. I was DELIGHTED when she said if that's what I really want, she would support and encourage me. WOW! It was one of the happiest days of my life. As has been the history during all this, she told me the next day that she didn't feel "right" about it and looked up scripture. The Deuteronomy 22:5 scripture is the most compelling verse. I have formulated my response that is based on sound theology and will soon discuss that with her.
I hope to take this journey with her by my side; but nonetheless, I told her I am taking the journey. I am so excited!
