I've gotta be honest, I'm absolutely frustrated with waiting. I've had my letters for top surgery for almost three years now and am no closer to having the money needed. I have been trying, but my funds are so low I spent three months in a homeless shelter and now live with friends in their enclosed porch.
My mother said she could help pay for half of it (up to 4000$) as long as I 'proved' I wanted it bad enough by earning the other half. I'm just stuck right now. I need to change over all my documents before I can get a job - particularly as the new, small town I moved to requires me to be stealth full time. It's just this spot where I can't seem to move forward with money, and can't make money without moving forward.
Are there any top surgeons that do a good job in the 4000$ range? I'd been wanting Garramone, but frankly I'm ready to accept anything short of an axe murderer right now.
I can't even afford the 400$ they want for me to change my green card so I can change all my other documentation down to the state ID. I'd go back to Canada but that process takes another two years. I feel like I might be insane if I need to wait that long on top of the other bull->-bleeped-<- I've had to wait through. I got the court-ordered namechange all done and have NOTHING to show for it because the green card change MUST come first.
I'm getting tired of this uphill battle. I've been really bitter lately.
...thanks for listening, gents.