So this week my wife of 28 years who so far has not thrown me out of the house has begun a very combative position about most everything to do with me, my schedule, my dressing, and my transitioning. So far not violent but very aggressive, I am moving out of our shared room this weekend and have started to prepare the guest room as a permanent shelter. We have agreed that my changes would require this at some point as she is not willing to be involved with another female (somewhat homophobic in my opinion). I have set her up with therapist who seemed to work with gid spouses not sure how that is going though.
Any way bottom line is transitioning is going well but home life not so much, I promised I would not go full time until after the holidays as my wife is concerned about the impact to our grandkids, I was hopeful that would help ease some of her stress as well. Not sure it is helping either one of us but I will hold to my commitment to her and wait until January to go full time. Therapy is and will be on going for me.
I petitioned court system for legal name change this week so that should be resolved in a couple weeks court date for 11-08 then motor vehicles and social security and I will have documentation supporting who I am with the correct gender, Looking forward to that part being done,
Still waiting to hear back from insurance on preapproval for facial feminization surgery for January
I have another week before I can get updated blood work and hopefully an adjustment in my hrt, faster more faster more lol. Kind of reminds me of a time past, only different pills. Yes I am addicted to this process and feel that I it has so much more to offer than the ole rush we sought. Now I have an inner peace that I live with all day every day. For me most of this has been very positive and rewarding socially and psychologically, lost a few friends or those who I thought were and gained many others. So even the worst has been offset so far, a bump in the road here and there but will push, pull and drag myself down this long long path stopping to only to look back and reflect for brief moments.
Wishing the best for everyone here
XO Jerri
