Hello, everyone!

Although I have been an avid reader of Susan's for a long-time and also had an account in my early MTF days, I just wanted to properly introduce myself and just say Hi! to all the people here.

I'm 26yo MTF, currently and indefinitely ON THE LOW and sort-of out to only my mother. You can call me Vanya, and although I've deferred making it my official username as my mother expressed vague dislike for it (without actually knowing the reason of me asking about it) and haven't found another name that I preferred, this name will and MUST do, as I'm very much in love with it!

I have been on HRT for some months untill recently, which I LOVED, but had to get off of it seen as some unaddressed fears and awareness of my improper social skills has arisen at one point, so I decided to try and sort those issues before I can really know what I want and HOPEFULLY get back on the E, the lack of which is tremendously exhausting and exasperating! It took me 50 minutes to concoct a barely sane post and then I just erased it and wrote it anew. (T must be seriously gnawing at my every tiny shred of reason and logical thinking!)

Anyway, I thought I'd try and get bit socialized here (the thing I never had the COURAGE or real inclination to do in my adolescence) in order to get a more solid foundation upon which to build the future ME.

I sincerely hope my post isn't too hard (edit: or too LONG) to read; it definitely is an improvement over version 1.0, which gave me a headache even to look at.


Looking forward to writing to you all wonderful people,

Love, Vanya.

Hi Vanya!

It's a lovely name, I see why you like it. 

Welcome back to the family. Come on in and make yourself at home. Don't worry, your post wasn't too long or at all difficult to read. I hope you can find some insight here into your issues so you can get right back on the E. We're here to help.

love,
-maggie

Hi, Magdalena!
Thanks for your reply.

Yes, I love that name. I see no other name defining me so that must be the one for me!

Thanks for the welcome and assurement about my post; sometimes I get a little long-winded, although it takes hell a lot to get started.

I know I'll be loving it here; have been loving it so far, only from a more "passive" seat.


Love, Vanya.

Hi Vanya 

Welcome to Susan's    Glad to have you here

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V M

Hi Vanya, welcome to Susan's Place!  I'm up near Boston. Don't get too hung up on crafting your posts, they won't be graded! See you around, hugs, Devlyn

Hi Vanya, welcome to Susan's!

amy

Thanks everyone!

@Devlyn Marie, yes curbing my overobsessing over every bit of my output is yet another achievement for me to grasp. Yet my only overobsessing there was speaking my mind which, after the years of a "loner" lifestyle and testosterone, is hard sometimes. But it only comes sweeter when it does.

Hi,
You've come to the right place for making friends and learning about yourself.

Hi Vanya,

Welcome to our little family. Over 8312 members. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.


Janet  )O(

Welcome back, Vanya!  Glad you kept up.

Did you know that the very first thing 17-beta estradiol effects?

The brain - in a matter of seconds.

Thanks for the welcome, everyone!
@Janet, aww this is so sweet of you. A big hug for you, sis!

@ Jamie, yes, HRT is such a rush, although it took quite a while for me owing to the low dosages and very manly working and social environment to which most of my life was confined; having rid of those, the estradiol really kicked in! In fact all was going so fast that in as short as a month's time I developed a completely different personality and at some point I became a bit paranoid (a very common trait with me) and I had to lay it off for a while untill I settle out my life- and HRT-expectations, that is try to get my feet on the ground and keep my head levelled and clear while I figure it out, which is extremely difficult with T steamrolling it. Maybe that's a sign of confirmation of my journey? But that's fodder for another topic, and I have had quite a few of 'em on my mind lately.