Xhianil, sometimes.... many times in life we must wait. we must learn patience. take this time as an opportunity to learn patience.
as far as not getting fed. this is common over the world. i work in a poor neighborhood in my city at a community garden. we do what we can. thankfully our city schools have a free breakfast program, free/reduced lunch (about 99% of the kids qualify for totally free). this leaves dinner. i have started cooking classes at some of the schools, and when i pitch it to administrators, i tell them: "i want this class to be at the end of the day, so kids can take extras home to give to their siblings and parent(s). i want it to be like a 5 star restaurant just opened up in our neighborhood, only the food is free and it is a class"
another thing in our neighborhood is there are many community meals. some are better than others, but you might want to look into free meals being offered around your town... but be careful, many are in bad neighborhoods and many troubled people attend.
like Seras said, i do not know you, so i can not make recommendations as to what you should do. i'm assuming you aren't 18. there is a thing called emancipation. if you google "emancipation of minors texas", you should find some info
throughout history, many children have ran away from their parents. i can only imagine what the world would be like if the Buddha never ran away from his parents, sure he was an adult. Parents can be very possessive, i know my mom was. i always thought that she saw my life as a 2nd chance for her to do hers right... only that isn't how it works. it's my life not hers!
i grew up in catholic school and i knew at a very young age how i wanted to live. just like Seras, i did a lot of distracting myself. my childhood and teenage life up to when i finally accepted myself and had the courage to begin transition is like a foggy haze. not many memories from those times and while i wish i had the courage and strength to transition earlier, i made it through those times alive. i graduated college, paid it off, and at that point in my life, felt that i had done my duty to my parents and could begin to live my own life.
i know i've written a lot but perhaps not said much. my best advice is to hang in there. this time will make you a stronger person. look into services like free meals, perhaps get a job at a food service place. i know whenever i worked at subways they gave workers a free 6" each shift. (that was all i ate on many days. student loans don't pay themselves)
back to the hunger issues. i mentioned i work on a community garden. it's more of an urban farm. i'm not too familiar with growing in texas, and i know there's probably whacky water laws out there. but... take a potato, cut it up so you have 2 eyes for each chunk. and plant those i dunno, 2-3 inches deep. google it for better info. but you can turn 1 potato into 20, and it takes a few months, so long as you have enough water. nature is bountiful. nature is our true parent, and it gives us more than enough. many "weeds" here in ohio are edible, and tasty!
so i'm rambling now... my apologies. in short, take this time as an opportunity to grow into a stronger person. don't let your parent(s) attitudes influence your personal confidence and drive. you are a very important person, unfortunately your parents do not see this. much good will come into this world as a result of you living your life, according to your own free will. sounds vague and touchy-feely, but this is true. you will reach the state of bliss, but for now you are in suffering. many of us have been through suffering and have made it out into bliss. i really look forward to hearing your stories once you move out of your current situation. there's tons of cool spots in this country, and even more across the planet. i like that i am from a poor neighborhood in ohio. it somehow reminds me of how luke skywalker was from the equivalent. from the lowest comes the highest. one day you can look back at your past situation and feel joy that you came out of it. your story will help to inspire others who will come after you. we are the pioneers. life isn't easy, but there are great rewards for those who take up it's challenges. imagine the colonials who came to america from europe, imagine our future colonials who will be living on the moon/mars/other earthlike planets far away. it takes a lot of strength to be great, but i think you got it!
