Here I am 8 months on HRT. Looking back the great mental changes have settled in and I continue to find the peace and happiness mentally. I have physically changed in my fat distribution has made me facially look younger and my butt is now getting there, hair is greatly lessened and I have been having facial hair electrolysis . I have always had a lot of hair on my head but this has really filled up and I now have hair shoulder length. My breasts have grown and visible (at least to me). All in all I am pretty content with the progress. Now all this under full stealth and I find myself cross dressing significantly less and actually trying to hide my femininity.
Physically, my change in perception also make me see myself as fat whereas I'm the same weight and maybe less but I look softer and less defined muscularly . So I'm trying to lose weight and that is also much harder but I would like to lose 3 lbs and be around 139lbs. I'm 5' 7+", fined boned and size 6 ½ shoe. But what I saw as an easy transition before HRT now looks much harder physically to achieve.
I know it's the early stages and I will wait and see. I do have a great therapist that I speak with every couple of weeks but we generally have a good laugh about life. I am fortunate in that I am financially very strong and that creates its own demons but looking at the forum this seems to be a major blessing.
My business acumen seems to have sharpened and I am much calmer in my decision process BUT my temper as a prima donna continues to be Latino hot. I'm told that's normal.
I have come out to my SO and she surprised me with the level of support and her interest in seeing me thru this. she thinks I will be a really good looking female and she should know as she was a top french model. Cynical perhaps, but maybe that's the money angle. I know I will have company to be with me and to help me and this again makes me feel so blessed.
I continue to be thrilled and excited at my future. How many humans can experience a life in two genders. I know the RLE will be interesting and I worry about the FFS and SRS operations – pain and recovery and the dangers but I have accepted this as part of my life moving forward. I can only find the very best medical help and again this forum has been wonderfully helpful.
This forum has been ever so helpful; it has opened my eyes to so many others and their transition; its has opened my eyes to all the joys and pitfalls thru this process: it has given me advice on electrolysis and so much more. I have felt the pain and misery that so many of my sisters have had and I know that I will contribute back when I have progressed further with this transition. I am so fortunate to know where to go for the answers I seek and I thank you all.
May all of you always see the cup half full and may your road be smooth and flat.