i was going through a phase of attempting to deny what i felt including the feelings for girls, as an effort of becoming normal. i was restraining myself, arguing with myself every time dysphoria hit me or i got attracted to a girl that i should be rational and get rid of the weirdnesses.
but after the discovery of transness i decided i had a right to feel the way i wanted afterall. so i let myself free and didnt give much thought about feelings. however, its been only a few months since that happened and im feeling overly attracted to sex. ive never had sex before, but since a few days ago two or three times a day id want to pin down whoever the girl sitting beside me right there and have sex. the urge is pretty strong sometimes that i even get aroused. its quite comforting anyway, but its strange cos i had forcibly stopped all the attraction sometime ago and now that i've set myself free its coming back in full swing, or its making up for what i denied it of. why do you think i'm feeling so all of a sudden?

That's normal. I had to work through my feelings for girls before I could even touch my gender identity, but it was much like that for me. I was asexual for much of my younger years (before age 18 basically), I only really enjoyed watching porn lol, when it came to actual people, or actual fantasies, I never had any. I successfully repressed all my sexual feeling, particularly my sexual feeling for women. But when I accepted that it was OK, and just let things be, all of a sudden it was "GIRLS GIRLS EVERYWHERE!"

It'll pass, so my advice for now is to enjoy what you have repressed in yourself for so long.

ha! i had a porn phase too. my logic was, if i'm never to get i girl in real world, i at least deserve to watch some in internet. it lasted only a few months cos i meanwhile discovered that i was a transguy after all and that transition was possible, and felt determined that i'd actually get myself a girl after i'm good way into transition. so i completely got over it.
i'm not really worried that i feel so, i'm only scared that i might make my friends uncomfortable by my behaviour, or that i might give myself away. like lately i started not restraining getting touchy with girls, and i'm scared i might not be able to control myself and go over the limits of my disguise and tip them off. oh i just wish i could pass as a guy and make it all normal.

I call it being horny its pretty normal only cure is sex or fap or thinking of very unattractive things like pickes, just dont rape anyone.

I actually think it common alot of transguys go in a period of denying and then after they let themself go they become more sexual, I seen it with a couple of friends including myself.

Quote from: Natkat on October 26, 2013, 05:54:24 PM
I call it being horny its pretty normal only cure is sex or fap or thinking of very unattractive things like pickes, just dont rape anyone.

I actually think it common alot of transguys go in a period of denying and then after they let themself go they become more sexual, I seen it with a couple of friends including myself.

LOL no i don't think i'd rape anyone, no with the current organs i won't go into action, plus i can keep enough sense not to let it go that far. i'm only worrying i'd follow instincts and go too touchy-feely. there've been a few such times before the denial phase but my friends too didn't know much about sexual variations, so it didn't really matter. things are different now and there are even open lesbians around, so i'm scared.

Hormones man. Perfectly normal. I struggle with this every single day..

I can so relate to u bro...after accepting  all those feelings now that i look at girls it is so different
Like yesterday i took my friend out n in the restaurant this girl had mini skirt..i was sitting 3 tables away from the bathroom doors n she was sitting abt 6 or 7 tables..i was facing her..she started walking towards the bathrm n i couldnt take off my eyes off her...my  friend who is a female looked at me twice n she was like omg r u raping her with ur eyes lolll and i am not even on T yet so once i start T not sure how to handle this

happened 3 days ago on my way home from school in a public bus. it was quite crowded and i was standing a few seats away from this girl of our age in another school, also in her uniform. for some reason her posture caught my eye and i couldn't take my eyes off her. i couldn't really keep staring at her since we know each other slightly, but i couldn't help turning her way once every 5seconds. if she were closer i don't know where i would have ended up. the feelings were really strong. right now, a girl in a newspaper by my hand is turning me on. she's just lying on a hospital bed, and the photo is black and white, still it has an effect.