Quote from: Xhianil on November 09, 2013, 11:07:42 PM
Life.

Quote from: Jenny07 on November 09, 2013, 04:58:07 PM
Got absolutely poured upon on my Sunday bike ride. It was chucking down and flooding in places.
Not happy. Oh well still did 60k. We do need the rain though as it has been very dry and hot.

Ahh Sydney siders got washed, I thought the pong had improved!

Runs away to her rock and crawls under

Quote from: Kelly the Post-Trans-Rebel on November 09, 2013, 09:19:02 PM
I got deliberately misgendered at work last night by someone I work with..  It won't be happening again..

It's also exactly 6 months since I lost Alison.. I miss her.. 

Hugs Sis

A terrible thought came to mind, a negative response from my parents that may occur:
"We still love you no matter what, but we won't support you. You'll have to go through college as a man, and then use a job after that to finance your transition"
Doesn't help when the effects of dysphoria are causing severe harm to my grades.

You can always start in college
without their knowledge.

Heehee, I made a rhyme.

Major dysphoria attack.
Need a release from it and all my coping mechanisms are gone. Even trying to use them (I ate a donut amongst other things) fails.

I just want to run away, but I know it won't help.

When I was finally considering driving to church, my mom now has to help take others to church so I can't drive there to get used to driving.....

Quote from: kabit on November 10, 2013, 07:10:10 AM
Major dysphoria attack.
Need a release from it and all my coping mechanisms are gone. Even trying to use them (I ate a donut amongst other things) fails.

I just want to run away, but I know it won't help.

Don't beat up on yourself Kabit. Look at it like this, if a toddler learning to walk fell and bonked her head on a coffee table and just lay there crying and became fearful and didn't get back up, she'd never learn to walk. Get up Kabit, you'll be ok hon!

Quote from: LordKAT on November 10, 2013, 12:28:26 AMYou can always start in college
without their knowledge.

Heehee, I made a rhyme.

That's what I'm trying to do. But money is an issue. To quote my dad's words from last night exactly: "I don't want you working, I want you studying!" even though I have Fridays free next semestre.

Quote from: Shantel on November 10, 2013, 08:43:14 AM
Don't beat up on yourself Kabit. Look at it like this, if a toddler learning to walk fell and bonked her head on a coffee table and just lay there crying and became fearful and didn't get back up, she'd never learn to walk. Get up Kabit, you'll be ok hon!

Thanks It just takes time for it to pass me by... it's just that these are almost daily.
I'm REALLY hoping AA's help this... and I feel positive E will... that much I think my parents are starting to understand, at least.

Awful night out yesterday. At home cleaning the clutter of small printed things that litter the whole place and I keep procrastinating on classifying them.

Well, It's nearly the 18th hour of my birthday (not that I am happy about it), and my family has not even tried to contact me. I sent an SMS to my father giging my home number in case the grandparents wanted to talk with me as other years, but I have gotteng no answer. It's nearly a month and despite how toxic they are to me, I still feel disappointed and suffering.

I feel completely alone more than ever. If at least I could go back to work.

Quote from: Apple Sprout on November 10, 2013, 10:38:18 AM
Well, It's nearly the 18th hour of my birthday (not that I am happy about it), and my family has not even tried to contact me. I sent an SMS to my father giging my home number in case the grandparents wanted to talk with me as other years, but I have gotteng no answer. It's nearly a month and despite how toxic they are to me, I still feel disappointed and suffering.

I feel completely alone more than ever. If at least I could go back to work.

This family just has! 

I feel like I often get skipped over on the photo posting threads...wish I knew why...

Being confused about too many different interconnecting things.

Some reason, I'm just in a down funk. Probably because the more I empty my house, the more the loss of my home and privacy sinks in.

Quote from: LordKAT on November 10, 2013, 02:25:46 PM
Some reason, I'm just in a down funk. Probably because the more I empty my house, the more the loss of my home and privacy sinks in.

*BIG HUGS*

Quote from: LordKAT on November 10, 2013, 02:25:46 PM
Some reason, I'm just in a down funk. Probably because the more I empty my house, the more the loss of my home and privacy sinks in.

Feel better KAT! It sounds like lots of us are funked out today

Mind fog rolling in and I still have a lot of work to do. Somehow it always seems worse if I've been listening to music or watching videos. I'll need to step outside soon.

Feeling like my avatar.