Thinking about Shaina's hair, are you growing it out? It's about the same length as mine, only I want mine to be all the way down to my back.

Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on November 13, 2013, 09:39:49 PM
Thinking about Shaina's hair, are you growing it out? It's about the same length as mine, only I want mine to be all the way down to my back.

Hey there! I am growing it out actually! I cut it all off 20 Months ago when I went natural (I was bald tehe) Good luck growing yours-I'm sure it's lovely!

I hope I can get some sleep tonight. I'm excited/anxious about the flight (just normal travel things, want to get on the plane on time, etc...).

Take me with you! I'm sure it's warmer there than here, you could put me in your suitcase

I'm thinking I should ban Beth for not having doors.

Is it just me or is the moon extra bright tonight.  It's shining through my window and causing me to squint a little.

Quote from: LordKAT on November 14, 2013, 02:15:06 AM
I'm thinking I should ban Beth for not having doors.

Doors...are just for shutting people OUT.

Quote from: Beth Andrea on November 14, 2013, 02:56:41 AM
Doors...are just for shutting people OUT.

Or keeping them in.

Sometimes the problem is that we, as a group, have spent way too much time keeping people out. It gets too comfortable to stay with in our castle walls. Reaching out for help, support, information is difficult. Accepting people as friends who we can trust or even being able to love is often more like scary.

And yes, this post describes me.

Quote from: Shaina on November 13, 2013, 09:17:24 PM
I'm thinking that I the public speaker I just heard-at an event about black culture-is AMAZING due in large part to the portion of his speech he devoted to parallels between treatment of those in the black community and the treatment of transgender people.

Basically, I'm thinking I need to have this guy's babies  JK

I had a lovely lunch yesterday with a aboriginal-rights activist. We named and analyzed parallels between the social and semantic "othering" of transgender and aboriginal peoples. I bet there's a dissertation for somebody discussing trans* issues explicitly in terms of the discourse/rhetoric of decolonialization.

Quote from: LordKAT on November 14, 2013, 03:15:41 AM
Sometimes the problem is that we, as a group, have spent way too much time keeping people out. It gets too comfortable to stay with in our castle walls. Reaching out for help, support, information is difficult. Accepting people as friends who we can trust or even being able to love is often more like scary.

And yes, this post describes me.

You have struck on something I have observed too, we do tend to have our walls up and love is often thought of as synonymous with sex which raises a certain"ick" factor for many. Love can be so much more encompassing, warm and nurturing, the outward expression not necessarily being sexual at all, and then only when it's mutual after layers of trust have been established. Many never make it to that point having closeted themselves emotionally due to multiple layers of various fears and insecurities.

Quote from: LordKAT on November 14, 2013, 03:15:41 AM
Sometimes the problem is that we, as a group, have spent way too much time keeping people out. It gets too comfortable to stay with in our castle walls. Reaching out for help, support, information is difficult. Accepting people as friends who we can trust or even being able to love is often more like scary.

And yes, this post describes me.

My twin speaks the truth for me, also. Having friends can be terrifying.

*hugs*

Please don't laugh or roll your eyes.

Thinking when do I have to tell I'm trans. I've been approached by a les girl looking forward to a relationship, and how knows if we will meet in real life. I'm afraid about my voice as usual, but... Usually I kinda think that my photos should be a dead giveaway of my origin, but nooo, they have to love my legs, "flat" stomach and face... It's too weird.

QuoteOriginally posted by Shantel:

Love can be so much more encompassing, warm and nurturing, the outward expression not necessarily being sexual at all, and then only when it's mutual after layers of trust have been established. Many never make it to that point having closeted themselves emotionally due to multiple layers of various fears and insecurities.

This is a new perspective for me...the idea that "love" doesn't *have* to include sex.

Sex is, for me, less intrusive/uncomfortable/painful (even if one considers the shame which sometimes happens) than allowing someone into my heart, and hurting me from within.

   What am I thinking!   Sadness!!!

   janis

Quote from: janis on November 14, 2013, 09:42:39 AM
   What am I thinking!   Sadness!!!

   janis

*hugs*

I just called out of work, being held down by several heavy weights within...

I got fired yesterday. I didn't ask why, and I don't care. That job sucked, hardcore. I'm going to see if I can get a job at my local Joann's Fabric store.

On the one hand, I'm happy that I'm not getting covered in fiberglass anymore.
On the other hand, I kind of need a job to pay for my transition.

My sister wants me to work a college football game with her and the church tonight but since I'm on my period, I don't know.  I really don't feel like standing up in the cold all day freezing while I'm losing blood, especially if the game is going to last all night.  The second and third days are the most heaviest for me.  Doing that for no pay?  No thank you.  I'd rather play GTA V and plan out my Black Friday strategy.  I do feel bad though.  Stupid period.

Apparently I am thinking two things this morning:

Quote from: LordKAT on November 14, 2013, 03:15:41 AM
Sometimes the problem is that we, as a group, have spent way too much time keeping people out. It gets too comfortable to stay with in our castle walls. Reaching out for help, support, information is difficult. Accepting people as friends who we can trust or even being able to love is often more like scary.

Yup, that's me. It goes in stops and starts, of course. I let someone in a bit. Stop. Then let someone in a bit. Stop. Then... I have a friend who seems very fluid in his ability to open in very appropriate way situation to situation. He has much, many would think, to be ashamed of, but he keeps showing up. It's inspiring. I'm having lunch with him today.

Quote from: Just Gwynne! on November 14, 2013, 07:15:29 AM
I had a lovely lunch yesterday with a aboriginal-rights activist. We named and analyzed parallels between the social and semantic "othering" of transgender and aboriginal peoples. I bet there's a dissertation for somebody discussing trans* issues explicitly in terms of the discourse/rhetoric of decolonialization.

I recently read a book entitled, 'Native Poetry in Canada: A Contemporary Anthology'. Edited by Jeanette Armstrong, this collects work from the late 1960s to the early 2000s. Basically, it read to me like an account of a marginalized people fighting to find - and succeeding in finding - their voice. The parallels with trans culture struck me again and again. I cried over and over.

One of my favourite poets was Rita Joe who writes: 'I lost my talk / The talk you took away'

One day i shall finish Morrowind, yes yes, i shall finish Morrowind. I don't know what i will look like then, probably a full beard and yes, they will call me Brownbeard the Nutjob.