I am going on one month of estrogen. I feel great I truly believe My body needed this. I was just wondering if your everyday thoughts change in any way or is it just your physical body that changes. I happen to like men a lot. and  I've notice I have far less a feeling of inhibition when I see a  very attractive  man. In my life I've had wonderful relations with both sexes. I find that being on the estrogen I feel quite a strong urge to be with beautiful men. I don't Know if  I'm just changing naturally or is it partly do to the E. I seem to be more interested in comparing myself to a female rather then sleeping with her. I wouldn't necessarily pass up the opportunity to be with a woman, but my thoughts seem to be drifting towards delicious men.

Yes, Your inner self changes on estrogen and those changes are by far more impressive than physical ones. Except... at the same time, they are much more subtle and You are not really noticing them until one day You realise that not only Your thoughts have changed... You are a whole new person too.. yet, at the same time, it is still the same You. Its hard to explain, but it is the phenomena of "You know it when You see it (or rather, feel it)"

I became more ditzy and emotional

I doubt it would change your sexuality that quick your probably just being more open to the idea since your starting to see yourself as a woman now. And as far as E changing thoughts lets just say before I wasn't changing clothes 6 times because I thought they made me look fat.

thanks everyone for the input.

Yes, yes and yes.  And in nothing but wonderful ways.  Testosterone was like a $%^&storm in my head, a kind of sturm und drang.  I was moody, irritable and bitchy as if there was an itch sometimes in my head that could never be scratched.  I was angry, aggressive and could just snap at any time.  Then there was road rage and the urge to punch people who got on my nerves, and that was most people.

Now I smile and laugh a lot, and the $%^&storm has turned into a mild breeze.  I am happy.  I give a lot more hugs.  Baby animals and cute things make me squee hard now, and yes, I look at men a bit differently now.  I do think androgynous rocker guys like Dave Navarro, Jared Leto and Johnny Depp are kind of hot now.  I've never so much as kissed a guy on the lips, but hey...  I still don't think I could connect to guys on the right emotional level nor form the right kind of bond for a long term relationship, as I know all too well how guys tick.  But yes, I'm umm, straighter than I thought originally and don't think I'll die now without having sex with a cisguy at least once.

Over time my whole life changed. Yes I thought a lot different. The only problem is I cannot say how much that had to do with the hormones vs. just the joy of starting a new life.

My feelings seem to be changing more than my thoughts. But with both it's more a shift in focus than an actual change.

Quote from: Ashey on November 21, 2013, 09:59:42 PM
My feelings seem to be changing more than my thoughts. But with both it's more a shift in focus than an actual change.

This ^

I feel...I'm alive for the first time in my life.

Jen

OMG yes! Ugly thoughts about killing things while drinking beer in a fast car, while wearing a hockey jersey...gone. New thoughts- It's okay to cry reading hallmark cards. Babies are the cutest things on the entire planet! Puppies...what can I say.
More seriously, Aside from being more in touch with my emotions, I have a newfound respect and love for family. The need to nest, or improve the nest, I have a deeper understanding of the importance of helping, friends or family, in need.
It has it's downsides as well. Blonde moments. I keep an old toothbrush, to dip in cleanser, and clean around the faucet. Today I cleaned my teeth with it. I drive right by my house regularly. I take my hormones at eight A.M....at eight fifteen, I wonder if I've taken my drugs.

Quote from: Jill F on November 21, 2013, 04:37:55 PM
Yes, yes and yes.  And in nothing but wonderful ways.  Testosterone was like a $%^&storm in my head, a kind of sturm und drang.  I was moody, irritable and bitchy as if there was an itch sometimes in my head that could never be scratched.  I was angry, aggressive and could just snap at any time.  Then there was road rage and the urge to punch people who got on my nerves, and that was most people.

Great...
You pretty much just described my personality...
Geez...I'm too old to go down this road...too old...

Quote from: JLT1 on November 21, 2013, 10:14:11 PM
This ^
I feel...I'm alive for the first time in my life.
Jen

As opposed to feeling like one of THE WALKING DEAD?
(as I feel much of the time)

Quote from: JordanBlue on November 22, 2013, 04:12:22 PM
Great...
You pretty much just described my personality...
Geez...I'm too old to go down this road...too old...

As opposed to feeling like one of THE WALKING DEAD?
(as I feel much of the time)

JordanBlue,

Hey, I'm 51.  There will be some things I can neve due because I waited.  However, there are so many things that I will do because I have started, because I am me, because I am alive.  It's never to late, if only to live one day and know what it is to truly live.

As a man, I felt very little.  I worked, I worked and I played a little with my wife.  I was numb, so yea, a zombie.  Except when we danced.

Now, it's a whole new world and there are a lot of days left.

Hugs,

Jen

Quote from: JLT1 on November 22, 2013, 05:26:58 PM
JordanBlue,

Hey, I'm 51.  There will be some things I can neve due because I waited.  However, there are so many things that I will do because I have started, because I am me, because I am alive.  It's never to late, if only to live one day and know what it is to truly live.

As a man, I felt very little.  I worked, I worked and I played a little with my wife.  I was numb, so yea, a zombie.  Except when we danced.

Now, it's a whole new world and there are a lot of days left.

Hugs,

Jen

I'm 59 and feel in my mind, that I'm beyond the age to even consider transition.  Too much water already under the bridge. But this thread has hit home so much as far as describing how I've felt for years.  I'd just like to feel something other than like the walking dead.  But it's not likely that I could get meds unless I was diagnosed TS.  Or unless I self medicated.

I would have to say yes, but it is only noticeable fora  little while. You get so used to them you can't really tell.

i find that i don't process knowledge differently, its more that i perceive information differently, i attach emotion more easily to the things i see and experience, while before it was just logging information for the brain

Nooo, no self-medicating! *smacks wrist* Just go to a therapist and talk things out. If you want to start 'mones just tell them that so they know your intention is to get a diagnosis and referral letter. But if you're not ready for that then you aren't ready for meds, self administered or otherwise.

I don't disagree with what others have posted but i'm into my 3rd month on low level E & have yet to notice any major changes, the only major change is a reduction in my aggression & sex drive.

The weekend after I came out I noticed the biggest change, I spent most of the weekend crying over the relief of being out & the grief of ending an 8yr relationship. After that I noticed that I could cry at anything touching such as certain moments in Dr Who, I even cried watching Fantastic 4 when the Things wife dropped her wedding ring on the floor & he couldn't pick up the ring due to his deformed hands.
I firmly believe that this emotional change was due to me dropping the social conditioning i'd recieved throughout my childhood that "big boys don't cry"

It's still early days for me & i'm on the lowest level of E right now, this level will go up in a month or two so maybe that will cause a change for me

I would be very skeptical of specious claims which may have no basis in science or reality.

Quote from: Ultimus on November 23, 2013, 12:41:47 PM
I would be very skeptical of specious claims which may have no basis in science or reality.

Social conditioning is very much based in reality, my father had no toleration for his "sons" displaying emotion, if we displayed any non-male emotions in his eyes then he would shun us until we "manned up".
Even though my brothers are definately not trans thay have all stated that my father stunted our emotional growth throughout childhood, this is why none of us have anything to do with him nowdays.

Regardless of changes in emotion being through E or breaking free of social conditioning we each define our own reality, psychiatry is not an exact science & science has a long way to go to explain the exact workings of the mind

Quote from: Ashey on November 23, 2013, 11:50:16 AM
Nooo, no self-medicating! *smacks wrist* Just go to a therapist and talk things out.

Not even like 1mg a day? Just to see if it makes me feel better?