I trying to out myself a little each day. My goal is full time by summer. Its weird that I'm so anxious about trying to do this, Every body on Susan's place looks great in their skirts and dresses. Each day on the estrogen gives me a little more courage. It's pretty incredible when you realize how right this is for your self  Every day I get some encouragement when a cis woman looks at me in make up and smiles and is so nice. It feels like some one pulled that wrench out of the machinery How amazing it must be to live everyday like it was so normal to be your self. Susan's place has helped me so much. I'm sorry if this is going to sound a little weird but I love everybody  thanks for all the ideas.

*hug*  Day by day you are getting there.

I love you back.  There, that's not so weird now, is it?    It's a girl thing.

I think the moment you are waiting for is, what myself, and my girlfriends refer to as 'The new normal'. Very hard to define, it is that moment in which you stop getting dressed up as a girl- You're just getting dressed. There's no OMG I'm in the ladies washroom. It's your washroom.
Buying underwear is so mundane that you just add it to the shopping list.
The day you stop acting like a woman, and just being, is a huge stepping stone that cannot be planned, nor can you pinpoint exactly when it happened. You're life has changed and you didn't even know it. At the same time, even trying to be a guy suddenly becomes very difficult, as you can not turn off an act that simply isn't an act anymore. It's being.
My moment of realization that I was in 'The new normal' was when I realized I had not thought about transition, being TS, or some new way to emulate a woman for a very long time. Being.
When you aknowledge  'The new normal', you will also realize that you have been in it for quite a while already. I think the state of 'The new normal' can come at anytime during transition too, it's not determined by surgery, or the size of your boobs. It's about how you have assimilated into your new being.
Good luck. With 'The new normal' comes a whole new feeling of calm. Being.

thanks very much

I'm aiming for summer to go full time as well. *group huggles*

Don't worry, little by little going full time isn't a bad idea. That's my plan over the summer, albeit a bit more rapid that you plan. I'm not on hormones yet, but plan to be soon. As for dresses, don't worry, I've got a ways until my body is dress ready (except my legs, I'm told); right now size 12 is about right, although I'd prefer to be in the 6-8 range, but it'll get there. Just tryst yourself on size judgement, and be fortunate if you're under 6 feet tall; it's a lot easier to fit yourself properly.

Quote from: evecrook on November 22, 2013, 03:14:13 PM
I trying to out myself a little each day. My goal is full time by summer. Its weird that I'm so anxious about trying to do this, Every body on Susan's place looks great in their skirts and dresses. Each day on the estrogen gives me a little more courage. It's pretty incredible when you realize how right this is for your self  Every day I get some encouragement when a cis woman looks at me in make up and smiles and is so nice. It feels like some one pulled that wrench out of the machinery How amazing it must be to live everyday like it was so normal to be your self. Susan's place has helped me so much. I'm sorry if this is going to sound a little weird but I love everybody  thanks for all the ideas.

being out can be and tends to be at some point. i know some of us dont come out of the closet but rather fall out of it on accident. either way its a good step/stumble foward