Just thinking how ridiculous it is to have an official diagnosis, but no letter for HRT.
I just want it to be Wednesday already.

That nasty black dog has me firmly by my ankle today and needs to let go... either that or I just really need to pull my head outta my a$$. 

No specific problem or issue, just everything feels blah. That's life, eh?  Gonna take today off work, that should hopefully lift my mood.

Quote from: Ms Grace on November 24, 2013, 05:24:06 PM
That nasty black dog has me firmly by my ankle today and needs to let go... either that or I just really need to pull my head outta my a$$. 

No specific problem or issue, just everything feels blah. That's life, eh?  Gonna take today off work, that should hopefully lift my mood.

Please tell me that's a Nick Drake reference?

Frustrated that I have such great music and art in my head, but can't put it down on paper, can't figure out how to use software to make the music or art.
Was I truly meant to be a creative person?

Quote from: AlexanderC on November 24, 2013, 05:56:28 PM
Please tell me that's a Nick Drake reference?

"Black Dog" is a common expression in Australia for depression, probably has it's roots in Nick Drake's Black Eyed Dog song... dunno! 

I can basically never convince my wife it isn't my fault. I didn't choose to bury being trans*. I didn't choose to keep it buried when we got married. I didn't choose to keep it buried until now... and I didn't really choose to come OOTC now! If that were a choice, I might well have made the other one ~ to keep it buried until I died... if just for the family.

Coming out when I did was circumstantial... a confluence of dysphoria. It likely would have happened sooner or later, but this was the perfect storm of dysphoria triggering conditions at the perfect time in my life ~ when I couldn't care less about what people thought of me.

Still am feeling the same as Friday...

Morons telling me I should have contact with my toxic family.

Quote from: Orange Creamsicle on November 25, 2013, 03:20:26 PM
I miss my chat friends.

*hugs* i know how that is, I'm missing the heck outta my boyfriend.

My reading in bed turned into a 3 hour nap.

Quote from: big head horsey-faced marsh monster on November 25, 2013, 05:16:26 PM
Not used to just cooking for one yet.

Poor baby, fix a couple of extra hot dogs and I'll be right over!

Having that sluggish feeling (full stomach) after a meal.....

Quote from: Willow on November 24, 2013, 06:08:07 PM
Frustrated that I have such great music and art in my head, but can't put it down on paper, can't figure out how to use software to make the music or art.
Was I truly meant to be a creative person?

Maybe you just need the right time of day and mood to jot it down.

Going to sad posts to cheer the OP up...

And becoming sad yourself. 

That moment when I had to take my makeup off and begin to get ready for bed. I don't want to get up and go out in male mode to go to work tomorrow.... I went from wow I actually look half way good to oh my god there's that guy again

I feel like I want to crush my head.

Quote from: Willow on November 25, 2013, 10:25:32 PM
I feel like I want to crush my head.

Nooo! I'd miss you too much! 

Things will get better.

Quote from: Megumi on November 25, 2013, 10:10:33 PM
That moment when I had to take my makeup off and begin to get ready for bed. I don't want to get up and go out in male mode to go to work tomorrow.... I went from wow I actually look half way good to oh my god there's that guy again

Ugh, I hate that guy. He's always messing up my mirror. Stupid jerk...

Anywho, on the subject of my own unhappiness, my Internet was off for half of the day today. No idea why, it just disappeared, then returned as mysteriously as it left.

I am praying to whatever deity is up there that my master's degree is going to be the light at the end of a very long and annoying tunnel. My mom just made the assumption that if my middle brother doesn't buy the truck, my youngest brother gets it. Hi, I'm 24, I have my learner's permit (YB does not), IO have an income (YB does not), and I have been spending the past 7 years busting my balls and my bank account to get myself an education. Which meant putting my transition, as well as nice little extras like a vehicle, on hold. I think it should be my turn.

Please God just let me get a decent job.

I asked what my younger brother would need a truck for and he said "to work." Uh huh. OK Princess. Your pets and whatnot have all demonstrated that you clearly lack the motivation and responsibility for a vehicle.