My psychologist messaged me today - my referral to the one and only gender clinic in the country ("we" like monopolies, or at least the politicians do) has been rejected, since they want me to go to therapy until next summer/fall before being considered. At least it's only temporary.
I'd be okay with that, if it meant I could get treatment sometime next fall. But no. At worst, the waiting time for the first appointment could be around eight months from the time of my next referral. And then, they spend one year making a diagnosis, before I'm even allowed to start HRT - if they confirm my diagnosis (there have been some weird cases of random diagnostic criteria, and there's no second opinion available currently). So basically I have more than two years of limbo ahead of me. And I have to go to uni for a final in two hours - perfect timing. I knew this wouldn't be easy, but still... I hate this feeling of being in a vacuum.
At least, there's a bright point - there are rumors a newly established commission for evaluation of the trans* treatment program in my country will decide to enforce the SoC, in addition to making a second opinion available. They're supposed to finish the new national guidelines by the end of 2014, and since I won't see the inside of a/the gender clinic before 2015, the wait could actually work to my advantage. I'm having a hard time making constructive thinking into constructive feeling, right now, though.