I have been so traumatized and depressed in my life...and now I have a chance of creating a happy life (good job, great GF, more friends than I've had in my whole life combined)...and yet I am afraid of just accepting that I *can* be happy, so much so that I've actually caught myself thinking of ways to sabotage my own good fortune...
Is becoming happy and content supposed to be painful? I hope it's just fear of the unknown, of change....