hi all!

This is my very 1st post i only just registered a few moments ago, but truthfully I've been lurking around for almost a month or so now  (creepy? lol) trying to build up the courage to introduce myself and get ready to talk about things in my own life, i'll spare you all the life story where i struggle with and reject my love for all things feminine, and skip all my billion-trillion questions i have for everybody and just stick to the introduction!

So the name i'm going to be using here is Aubrey as of today i am 26 years old, 6 months and 1 day of age,  give or take a few days for the leap years  and born genetically male.... 
over the last few weeks and months I've been going through my annual "should i? shouldn't i?" psychological break-down when it comes to my wanting to transition, only this was the SECOND time it had happened to me this same year, the first time in early February, my concerns have always been about what my friends and family are going to think about me, how am i going to be perceived by the  people i hope to work with/for in the future the same kinds of things that all of you have racked your brains over as well.

So after dropping out of my tafe course for obviously personal reasons early on this year dealing with depression and such i spent most of the year looking for work (unsuccesfully) and otherwise just playing video games and being miserable and hating myself for not doing anything about my life that was up until around about 3 weeks ago when i decided pretty much, to hell with the world if they don't approve, i need to do something or I'm going to end up hanging myself, going fruit-bat crazy or both...

So here i am  ready to being taking my 1st steps on the road to womanhood, ive got so much to do and so much to learn and i cant wait to begin!!

Hope to hear from lots of people

Welcome aboard!

i lurked around before i joined too

Quote from: wallflowerXo on December 08, 2013, 04:00:14 AMi'll spare you all the life story where i struggle with and reject my love for all things feminine...

i laughed when i read this. i know, it is was a sad time for all of us who went through that stage, but the way you addressed it was funny

i'd love to try and help answer any questions you have! i love the forums and i'm a big fan of the chat feature. i'll see ya around, and congrats on beginning to live your life!

QuoteRe: Hi Everybody!!

Hi Doctor Nick!

But hey, welcome and congrats on starting your journey!

Quote from: Emmaline on December 08, 2013, 05:36:37 AM
Hi Doctor Nick!

well if it isn't If it isn't my old friend Mrs. McGregg! with a leg for an arm and an arm for a leg!

lol yes i saw the topic title and immediately "Doh'd"

i do like to try and keep things lighthearted though (ironic.. as up until a few weeks ago i was a miserable pile of man-hair) but I'll save my questions for the 'transition' forum JoJo because I've a lot of them.

I'm still sort of in my "acceptance" phase... the last few weeks i was really going through a sort of "Ok... wow i'm not that dude at all I'm that girl" and then recently I've had lots of time to do nothing but sit down and think about that, about how if I'm not that guy, i must still be some version of him... except a her... but being her doesnt mean i have to give up everything that he liked... it was the whole existential crisis and eventually i reached a satisfying conclusion i am me 

I'm still gonna love star trek and PlayStation, I'm still going to love Johnny Cash and Quentin Tarantino lol

But having said all that making my 1st post, i was suddenly nervous while typing, my fear of being rejected is so heavily ingrained i was ACTUALLY afraid to post here... on a site specifically dedicated to/and asking for introductions from people in my exact situation.
I was thinking to myself "Ok, you are so painfully stupid.... this is the very 1st step... make friends with others... be scared if you have to be, but it's time to make a move and meet some people" and as silly as it might sound i almost didn't post because of that second guessing myself but I'm so glad i did, it might not sound like much, but ive decided that this is my very 1st step and I'm so happy to have found this site with so many wonderful people 

Thanks for making me feel welcome so soon.

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Hi Aubrey, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm up near Boston. See you around the site! Hugs, Devlyn

Welcome to Susan's, Aubrey. Congratulations on taking those first steps toward self discovery.

Thanks everyone!

i really appreciate the kind words of welcome, i already feel quite at home on the forum after only a day  you're all amazing, and i cant wait to start bugging you all with incessant questions and begging for tips lol just joking, it's all so exciting though.

Well I'm glad I'm not the only one. Now I don't feel like a scared little girl. I wouldn't call it lurking, careful maybe.

       Dina