I'm just having one of those days where every slightest little sad thing is making me cry and I can't stop. 

Ever have one of those days where you think you might have hurt a stuffed animal's feelings?

the site i am going to start doing commissions has been down for 3 days (give or take) so i cant set it up! i need some money for extra foodz!

My stupid sister broke my 8GB MICRO SD card, now I have no music and have lost everything on it!  Worst of all she's gonna get away with no punishment, again... At this point it seems like she enjoys breaking my stuff, after my phone (twice), my expensive hard drive, my flash drive, my PC, and several other asorted things of mine...

Still no word from my endo. I wonder if it will be too much of a problem if I miss a shot or two. I have no idea when I will hear back.

Quote from: Edge on December 16, 2013, 12:56:06 PM
Still no word from my endo. I wonder if it will be too much of a problem if I miss a shot or two. I have no idea when I will hear back.

Just FYI, you might feel like total crap. If that does happen, don't let it get to your head! When I was without T I went to a bad place and I had to keep reminding myself that it was just hormonal.

Quote from: caleb. on December 16, 2013, 01:13:53 PM
Just FYI, you might feel like total crap. If that does happen, don't let it get to your head! When I was without T I went to a bad place and I had to keep reminding myself that it was just hormonal.

Thanks for the warning.

Mom just keeps referring to me as "my boy"

Quote from: Edge on December 16, 2013, 01:36:17 PM
Thanks for the warning.

I'm not trying to forecast doom and gloom because I really hope that isn't the case. I just remember wishing I had known that the bad feelings I had were entirely temporary.

Nah. I really do appreciate the warning.

I have until Friday to pack up and move!! Landlord evicted the whole building.

Quote from: Keaira Raine on December 16, 2013, 04:39:13 PM
I have until Friday to pack up and move!! Landlord evicted the whole building.

That really sucks.

Are they selling the property?

Quote from: Keaira Raine on December 16, 2013, 04:39:13 PM
I have until Friday to pack up and move!! Landlord evicted the whole building.

Doesn't sound like they gave you much notice. You should look into tenant protection laws.

This. WARNING! GRAPHIC!

Somehow my facebook feed started showing the posts of someone dedicated to the cause of companion animal cruelty and I have not slept well since. A German shepherd dog in Bosnia had half his face blown off by two cruel teens and wandered around in horrible pain for 5 days afterward. I haven't been able to sleep since I saw this. I'm so sickened by this and other horrible stories of animal cruelty (many happening right here in the US and even in so called 'animal shelters') that I'm not even sure I can stand to be human anymore.

Quote from: Keaira Raine on December 16, 2013, 04:39:13 PM
I have until Friday to pack up and move!! Landlord evicted the whole building.

What makes me unhappy is that there's nothing I can do to help, because I'm stuck in stupid Canada.

Quote from: FA on December 16, 2013, 05:14:15 PM
This. WARNING! GRAPHIC!

Somehow my facebook feed started showing the posts of someone dedicated to the cause of companion animal cruelty and I have not slept well since. A German shepherd dog in Bosnia had half his face blown off by two cruel teens and wandered around in horrible pain for 5 days afterward. I haven't been able to sleep since I saw this. I'm so sickened by this and other horrible stories of animal cruelty (many happening right here in the US and even in so called 'animal shelters') that I'm not even sure I can stand to be human anymore.

I know the feeling, I can't understand why anyone would harm an animal. It just...seems incomprehensible.

Quote from: caleb. on December 16, 2013, 05:26:24 PM
What makes me unhappy is that there's nothing I can do to help, because I'm stuck in stupid Canada.

I didn't know you were in stupid Canada!

My mother being super drunk today when my sister was braiding my hair.  She was being super loud and controlling that it was even geting on my nephew's nerves.  My sister told me that is why she and my other sister hardly comes over and that she really feels for me since I live over here.

Stopping HRT day #01, first of the week. I 'be been literally in shock during the last week with little time to thing about everything, and now that I'm back to my daily fight, GID has come back to bite me In the ass. Oh, and I don't want to think about the next days will be, I already have my box of androcur with me, but I can't start with it until I get a new baseline blood test after the system cleanup.

I need to ask the at the utig if they can give me just the BA without waiting forhealthcare covered SRS. Would be kinda nice, and avoid making me go back to guy mode.

Quote from: EstroGwynne on December 16, 2013, 05:39:56 PM
I didn't know you were in stupid Canada!

Looks wet.

It's 0215, even with the lay in of work commitments to me tomorrow I'll still only get 6 1/2 hours sleep, if I went to sleep right now. Except I can't sleep, and haven't been sleeping properly for weeks. I tried sleeping earlier and all my mind could settle on was what would have happened if I'd walked into my room earlier when they were still having a conversation about "sex changes" and if I'd found them being transphobic. I have no reason to believe they were saying anything at all transphobic, especially as the girl who knows about me was there. She probably initiated it to test the waters for me.

In reality I know it's just my brain taunting me with the knowledge that I'd lash out and then drink it away in a situation like that. Except then I'd lose my job, my home and my girlfriend. I'm truly terrified that I'll wind up an alcoholic one day, even though I barely drink. If I could access it I would. I don't know how to survive being stuck with the thing that damages my mental health all day, (ie me).

F-ing incompetent internet/phone company stopped auto withdrawing my payments and the bill built up without me knowing, haphazard arrival of invoices and then when I paid the bill they put it on the wrong account(that one is in credit now) and won't fix their stuff up so now I owe more.