I decided that I'd apply to my summer camp and send an email explaining that I am trans and would be openly identifying as Dean this summer. They won't get the email until January 2nd because of vacation, not sure about the application, but I'm so anxious. I don't know what they'll think since I know some of them are really accepting and others aren't so much.

*takes deep breaths* I hope this works out. I'm trying not to get really anxious. Took me several minutes just to muster the balls to click send. I just keep telling myself it's a step in my social transition, it has to happen eventually.

At least I can stop worrying about it now. It's done, can't do anything now until I hear back. 

That's a really big step, mate.  Good on you!  I'm sure it will all work out.  Either way, good luck 

I'm proud of you.  Congrats on being so bold!  In the meantime, try not to think about it (even though that might be hard to do) and enjoy your holidays.  Just know that whatever happens, you will soon get to live as your true self.