There's a glitch in GTA V: Online that makes my character appear to have some sort of weird looking flat braids and no matter how many times I change his hair style, those weird looking braids are still there, along with the hair style I chose so I chose chose a black mohawk because I thought that was pretty look looking and I've actually wanted a braids with a mohawk before.  Nevertheless, I wish this was fixed and I attribute this glitch to "patch" 1.08.

Quote from: Willow on December 18, 2013, 09:27:59 PM
Tis' the season, they say. Indeed it is for me.
I only feel it right to ask for permission from my parents, considering I'm still on their insurance, to start HRT, but it could take months, years, for them to understand enough to accept me as me.
Nothing in the world would make me happier than them saying "I approve of this, go ahead and transition." Not all the presents under the Christmas tree, nor any that don't fit. Not even my desire to own my own jet is as strong as the desire to be accepted as a woman by my family. I'd much rather have the latter than the former, that can come later, if ever.

I'm sorry Willow! I hope that this break at least marks the beginning of your family coming to terms with your gender identity.

::HUGS::

The same to you Kabit! You're so right about the distinction between tolerance and acceptance.

I was deluding myself to think that I could transition in my current workplace. 

Quote from: Unjust Gwynne! on December 19, 2013, 07:42:12 AM
I was deluding myself to think that I could transition in my current workplace. 

((Gwynne))!! It's not a delusion... it's a hope and it's optimism... and I know for me it's the only way I'm able to do some of the things I have to do. If I'd have known my wife's reaction, I might never have come OOTC.

Quote from: Saison Marguerite on December 18, 2013, 03:53:49 PM
I am so sorry to hear that! I know that Caleb has been dealing with something similar today. He got out of bed but he doesn't feel up to going out to the store or anything like that.

I did get out in the end though! Only to refill my T, go to Walmart whilst waiting, and then forget to return to get the actual bottle...

Through the last few years i have forgotten how my autism made me feel. Now that it's all back full-force (after years of therapy forced it into the background,  even making me very social), i again find myself wondering whether i am going insane. I feel like a douche when i have a meltdown, i feel like a small child. I wish there was a cure. I had some thoughts i am not going to go into detail about, since i know that things like that can easily trigger others, but i am too chicken to do it. Besides, today i got to entertain some little children, including my niece, and the smiles on their faces and the joy they get just rub off on me and.....dogs and children, they are what makes me smile. I hope i'll have children of my own one day. If i wouldn't be so oversensitive (it's because of my Asperger autism), i would gladly babysit them. I just enjoy bringing them joy, joking around, seeing them have fun. They remind me of myself when i was small (before my chronic depression hit). I have a big heart for children and for dogs.

And dogs are just so damn loyal and caring.

The Metal Gear V reveal trailer that I watch everyday in my Youtube "like" list has been removed and the only other video of it has some type of static noise in it at around the 2 minute mark. 

Ugh!

I don't know how I did so bad in school. My GPA is so far down the toilet I doubt it is recoverable. I feel so stupid for failing two classes, the two classes that I need for my degree of course.
I don't deserve to be in college if I'm this stupid. What makes me think I deserve life? How can I demand anything?

Quote from: Willow on December 19, 2013, 05:26:07 PM
I don't know how I did so bad in school. My GPA is so far down the toilet I doubt it is recoverable. I feel so stupid for failing two classes, the two classes that I need for my degree of course.
I don't deserve to be in college if I'm this stupid. What makes me think I deserve life? How can I demand anything?

Don't beat yourself up. I don't believe for a second that you're stupid. With all of the stress in your life, it might just be a poor time for you to be in school. It's very hard to succeed when you can't focus. Talk to counseling services. They might be able to help you out with your academic standing.

Quote from: kabit on December 19, 2013, 07:54:56 AM
((Gwynne))!! It's not a delusion... it's a hope and it's optimism... and I know for me it's the only way I'm able to do some of the things I have to do. If I'd have known my wife's reaction, I might never have come OOTC.

Thanks, Kabit.

I feel better now.

Quote from: Unjust Gwynne! on December 19, 2013, 06:03:39 PM
Thanks, Kabit.

I feel better now.

Big hug!

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on December 19, 2013, 06:04:58 PM
Big hug!

Thanks Dev

No, thank you. For coming back.  Hugs, Devlyn

Quote from: Unjust Gwynne! on December 19, 2013, 06:02:08 PMDon't beat yourself up. I don't believe for a second that you're stupid. With all of the stress in your life, it might just be a poor time for you to be in school. It's very hard to succeed when you can't focus. Talk to counseling services. They might be able to help you out with your academic standing.

What else am I supposed to do? I can't just go work anywhere. Who wants to hire a unstable pre-everything transsexual? If not school, then work. But I can't work. My body doesn't work, so how can I?

Since it isn'ta disability I doubt there's anything they can do. I'll try, but I doubt I'll get anywhere.

Hon, Gwynne is right. And it's a Charlie-in-the-box. Nobody wants a Charlie-in-the-box. 

Hugs, Devlyn

Gaaaahhhh!!

P A I N S T A K I N G L Y typed a reply to a thread from my itty bitty 2.5 x 3 inch phone screen & it took      f  o  r   e  v  e  r.....






And wouldn't post because the thread's now locked....!


Noooooooooooo!   

Quote from: Valerie on December 19, 2013, 06:41:58 PM
Gaaaahhhh!!

P A I N S T A K I N G L Y typed a reply to a thread from my itty bitty 2.5 x 3 inch phone screen & it took      f  o  r   e  v  e  r.....






And wouldn't post because the thread's now locked....!


Noooooooooooo!   

Save the reply. It's only locked temporarily.

Quote from: FA on December 19, 2013, 06:47:42 PM
Save the reply. It's only locked temporarily.

*phew!*

I'm no good at playing Sisyphus, lol.  And if you were the culprit, I might muster up some forgiveness 

Quote from: Valerie on December 19, 2013, 06:41:58 PM
Gaaaahhhh!!

P A I N S T A K I N G L Y typed a reply to a thread from my itty bitty 2.5 x 3 inch phone screen & it took      f  o  r   e  v  e  r.....






And wouldn't post because the thread's now locked....!


Noooooooooooo!   

I know the feeling of to something on a thread that takes a long time only for it to be locked when I'm done.  I guess that's why I try to avoid responding at all in threads that get heated and may get locked.

Quote from: Willow on December 19, 2013, 06:15:12 PM
What else am I supposed to do? I can't just go work anywhere. Who wants to hire a unstable pre-everything transsexual? If not school, then work. But I can't work. My body doesn't work, so how can I?

Since it isn'ta disability I doubt there's anything they can do. I'll try, but I doubt I'll get anywhere.

Sorry to hear this, Willow. I feel you, I do. It took a lot for me to get through some terms at school because of the delayed transition, and I can completely understand how it feels like everything is falling apart.