Quote from: caleb. on December 19, 2013, 11:05:48 PM
Sorry to hear this, Willow. I feel you, I do. It took a lot for me to get through some terms at school because of the delayed transition, and I can completely understand how it feels like everything is falling apart.

I'm very worried dad might reverse his acceptance based on my poor performance.

Don't worry about your father. If he chooses not to accept you, it doesn't matter the reason, it is HIS problem. You have to take care of you right now.

I think it will be a bit hard to take care of myself without his money.
May be time to look into some big student loans.

Dealing with transphobia from someone claiming* to be trans in a group that is supposed to be for trans people. (Not here. If it was, I'd report them.) Worse, having people tell me I shouldn't call them out on their transphobia. They may be ok with being told trans people are just "really gay," but I'm not.

*According to their own beliefs, they are a gay man. Not saying that's true, but they did state that as their belief. I don't believe gay men to be the same as trans women and find that idea offensive.

Not having internet.

Quote from: Willow on December 19, 2013, 05:26:07 PM
I don't know how I did so bad in school. My GPA is so far down the toilet I doubt it is recoverable. I feel so stupid for failing two classes, the two classes that I need for my degree of course.
I don't deserve to be in college if I'm this stupid. What makes me think I deserve life? How can I demand anything?

You are not stupid!  It is difficult to concentrate on your course load when you are burdened with all sorts of other things, gender issues not withstanding.

I changed my major from biology to geology and ended up having a blast in college.  I loved Oceanography (Bio dept) but segued over into Marine Geology (Geol dept).  It added a year to my undergrad, but I just wasn't that mature at 19 or 20 to have my life plotted out.  And I was dealing, even then, with gender and sexuality issues.

I'm not all that mature now!

My mom is forcing me to go see my newborn nephew in the hospital.  I really don't feel like getting dressed and going out there into the cold.  As my father told me, "that baby will still be there".

Quote from: Jamie D on December 20, 2013, 04:38:56 PMYou are not stupid!  It is difficult to concentrate on your course load when you are burdened with all sorts of other things, gender issues not withstanding.

I changed my major from biology to geology and ended up having a blast in college.  I loved Oceanography (Bio dept) but segued over into Marine Geology (Geol dept).  It added a year to my undergrad, but I just wasn't that mature at 19 or 20 to have my life plotted out.  And I was dealing, even then, with gender and sexuality issues.

I'm not all that mature now!

Since I came in with 36 credits, my dad wanted me to graduate in 3 years. I can still do that, but I really don't know if I can anymore.
I've changed my major so many times, I know it's not right now, but what I really want to do (architecture) isn't offered at my school, and this GPA is too bad to transfer to a school that does.

I'm afraid that no one will understand or take me seriously when I say that my gender issues were the primary cause of my failing.

Quote from: Valerie on December 19, 2013, 06:41:58 PM
Gaaaahhhh!!

P A I N S T A K I N G L Y typed a reply to a thread from my itty bitty 2.5 x 3 inch phone screen & it took      f  o  r   e  v  e  r.....






And wouldn't post because the thread's now locked....!


Noooooooooooo!   

Sonovabitch! It just happened to me!

Quote from: Willow on December 20, 2013, 04:44:49 PM
Since I came in with 36 credits, my dad wanted me to graduate in 3 years. I can still do that, but I really don't know if I can anymore.
I've changed my major so many times, I know it's not right now, but what I really want to do (architecture) isn't offered at my school, and this GPA is too bad to transfer to a school that does.

I'm afraid that no one will understand or take me seriously when I say that my gender issues were the primary cause of my failing.

It's not your Dad's life or future.  It is yours.  Take the time to figure out what you want to do.  Sometimes the college is a bad fit.  Maybe a community college for a year or two (would save a lot of money too) and then transfer to get your Bachelors degree.

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on December 20, 2013, 08:42:59 PM
Sonovabitch! It just happened to me!

I noticed. :/ I was curious as to what you were going to say too.

Quote from: Malachite on December 20, 2013, 09:04:13 PM
I noticed. :/ I was curious as to what you were going to say too.

Check your inbox. 

Quote from: Devlyn Marie on December 20, 2013, 09:11:55 PM
Check your inbox. 

Got it!  Thanks!

Mom saying she'd rather have me diagnosed with asperger's than GD.

Taking out trash and did the rounds of the garage area where I live as people treat it like a dump, gripe and no one else picks it up!
Found spent syringes lying where kids could have found them. Effing druggies low life's who I have no time for.
Could have been very dangerous with serious consequences. Disposed of them safely.
It's not like I live in an area where this is common.

NOT HAPPY>

Coming here and reading someone wanted me to give them a dollar. Sorry but I'm trying to stay alive and housed. I feel this isn't the place for those kinds of threads as many of us are in the same boat.

realizing my nail polish is chipping, im starting to get panicky, i dont have any and i already want to redo my nails, ugh im such a priss

I thought coming back here for Christmas would give me a break from my gender issues and allow me to be calm when I go back and not get into trouble with my job again.  I was wrong.  Somehow they manage to use my name more than the two hundred people I live with back down there, and I forgot to bring a binder, and had no room for my boxers in my rucksack.  I keep freudian slipping and calling work my home.  I don't really have a home at the moment.

No room for underwear? Odd.

I have a habit of calling where ever I sleep, home. It only takes a couple days for me to do that as a rule. This included when I was sleeping in the parking lot at work.

I don't think there is a break  from gender issues as your body goes with you everywhere. I'm sorry you are with people who can't seem to transition with you.

Quote from: LordKAT on December 21, 2013, 02:02:15 PM
No room for underwear? Odd.

I have a habit of calling where ever I sleep, home. It only takes a couple days for me to do that as a rule. This included when I was sleeping in the parking lot at work.

I don't think there is a break  from gender issues as your body goes with you everywhere. I'm sorry you are with people who can't seem to transition with you.

I always do that! It doesn't even take a few days. I was on travel and my boss kept getting confused about "going home" to the hotel.