Hi!

I'm not totally sure if I'm in the right place yet and I might not be on the forum for very long. I'm still sorta figuring out whether I'm really trans. I was born a man 19 years ago and have a strong preference for men but in many ways am pretty masculine.

I might be going a bit too in-depth for an introduction but here's my "origin story".
When I was a kid I always preferred to play with the girls, play pretend and dress-up and things like that. I didn't like sports so I didn't really fit in with the other boys at all. That never really changed. I never really had any strong feelings of "I want/need to be/am a girl" until maybe a year ago. They've increased in frequency and now pretty much the only thing I really want is to be a cute pretty girl. I've dressed in some girls' clothing recently and it felt great! Not sexually or anything, I just felt right.
These past couple months I've been doing loads of reading on GID, gender dysphoria, and ->-bleeped-<- but haven't found any way to help me figure out if i'm really transgendered. Maybe the better question is, do I want to be a girl strongly enough to go through the trouble of transitioning? Being a man doesn't really cause me any distress, it's more like an inconvenience.

I came to this forum hoping some people would be able to help me figure stuff out.

I suppose that about wraps everything up. My guy name is Will, a girls' name I sorta like is Winter so I guess call me either!

Hi Winter,

welcome to Susans! We have people come to visit us from all over the world, expressing different points of view, and you are likely to find someone to help you along your way Here are some important links and things to ponder as you begin your journey here.

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There are many roads to Rome and many Romes so don't feel constrained in any way of how you feel.

Thanks, reading these now!

You and i are trimmed from the same cloth... Sorta. I thought i perferred women to men, but lately i feel like my attraction to women is mostly envy. Like how girls say "omg, ur so pretty!" I have never really felt sexual attraction to either gender. As a male i could not see myself sexually involved with a man. If i were physically a woman tho i would have no problem dating and making love to men. I tried "making whoopie" (as my grandma calls it) with a girl once but it felt wrong and was an awful experience for both of us. I was a virgin and she, well lets say shes been around the block. I have always known i should/would be better off as a woman. I would suit my personality much better as a woman. With that said, i feel like being a man isn't the worst thing in the world. It sucks, its like you said, more of an inconvenience than an utter mistake of biology. Just hang in there tho, do some soul searching. From the sound of things you very well may be trans. Loving men may have been enough for 19 years to get you closer to being a woman, but now you desire more. I recommend seeing a licensed therapist who has experience in gender variant individuals cuz they can help u see what you yourself cannot.

Welcome to the family, were glad to have u here! Feel free to PM me if u ever just wanna talk. Im no therapist, but i hope to be one day and i revel in the chance to practice this.

Thanks!

That makes a lot of sense. I've been thinking about seeing a therapist or counselor to talk about my possible ->-bleeped-<-, I'll definitely do that now!
Edit: argh, meant this as a RE to your comment LilLevy, not the thread :I

Hi Winter, welcome to Susan's Place! I live near Boston. Now that you've signed up you may as well stick around, there's no requirement of being transgender to be our friend. See you around the site, hugs, Devlyn

Hi Winter,

Welcome to our little family. Over 9004 members. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another member.


Janet  )O(