It's not really funny, calling someone a pussy and wuss ~ even in jest.

Quote from: Kaelin on December 22, 2013, 11:41:39 PM

I'm sort of in awe that these two extremes in personalities can exist in this world.  I don't think I've encountered anyone quite like either of them in the last five years (maybe even ten), and I've seen them both this month.

Good going though Kaelin, I would have done the same! 

I was having a blood draw by a young college aged girl who after five pricks couldn't seem to hit the vein. She was a lab intern and became clearly distraught and began to cry, she was horrified thinking she was hurting me. I hugged her and told her that she was doing fine, suggesting she try the other arm, mission accomplished! I felt like kissing away those tears because she was so concerned about my discomfort. It's not always that way with some people though!

Quote from: Dream Is Over on December 23, 2013, 06:34:13 AM
First week without HRT and my breasts feel like deflating again. They were quite sore and hard  on the last day, and now they feel as if the buds were getting smaller and softer, and everything going tiny again.

One week, just one more week before I can resume treatment again...

don't worry, you're not going to lose them or even part of them.

Quote from: Zóôt Al-Lúrês, Count of Anvil on December 23, 2013, 10:14:57 AM
don't worry, you're not going to lose them or even part of them.

Yeah, that's what the endo told me, but still. I stopped on the 17th, and today I was close to puck when I saw my naked reflection in the mirror. Sure, I have a beautiful box of prescription androcur, but I can't start taking it until  the 31st. At first I felt like I was coping fairly well, but now I'm getting paranoid again about masculinising again. Heck, the day before I stopped I was in sore breasts and growth spurt mode. Now I see myself and it is like looking at my pre-HRT self. I am even considering taking the breastforms again (Which does not say a lot about my current confidence.).

Boy, are my fingers sloppy today. I constantly mess up. A good thing that i no longer completely bury my playing underneath a barrage of effects, otherwise improvement would be almost impossible.

It makes me unhappy that people are unhappy when I'm estatic about something. I wish I could nring you guys up.

Quote from: Willow on December 23, 2013, 11:11:56 AM
It makes me unhappy that people are unhappy when I'm estatic about something.

Me too!
Family

I feel like I should go out and check that the horses are okay in their shelter with these high winds, but if I go out there and there's trouble there's nothing I can do.  If I don't go out and there's trouble then I'll regret it the next day.  I suppose I'll be going out.  I don't want to be out in this weather.  I can feel the wind from indoors even with all the doors and windows shut.

Edit: the shelters okay even if the younger of the two horses is freaked out and won't let me near to check properly. The back door to the house is moving even though it's locked and bolted tightly.

Got a voicemail from my endo's office today at 1pm. I'm seeing this (THANKFULLY) tonight at 10:30 pm. They wanted me to confirm my appointment (the one I confirmed last week, thank you very much).

Thank god they have office phone hours 9-10:30 tomorrow morning... yep... that's IT. Guess I should set an alarm for 9 am.

My pizza tastes liek a burnt pizza box now, and my Sprite is taking a long time to freeze.

I got asked why I'm not with my family for Christmas. Does it really matter? I got my mom's cat, that will do.

Quote from: LordKAT on December 24, 2013, 01:24:01 AM
I got asked why I'm not with my family for Christmas. Does it really matter? I got my mom's cat, that will do.

You are Honey, you are here with a family that Loves you

Yup, the best family of all. The one that wants to be.

I made a list on "Why I don't want to see my family tomorrow", but I missed one:

Getting asked AGAIN "Where is your girlfriend? When are you getting married?"

Being the only single one in the whole family has been one of those motives for being seen as a major failure. The more I think about previous occasions, the more I believe I'm better on my own. I'm only going there to see my grand parents one last time. Because the next time I will possibly see them  in a coffin.


Oh, and... I HATE SEAFOOD. And it's the only freaking thing they seem to put on the table. Christmas holidays is my most hated festivity in the whole year.


PS: If I get briefs for christmas from my parents again I'm sticking them in the first trashcan I see. I'm not accepting more male stuff.

I'm still being made to go to church but can't wear whati want because mom still "isn't ready" for it. So much for the only way I was going to church is in a dress. I thought I had strengthened but I'm still as spineless as ever.

Hey Willow , dont worry im pretty sure that most parents do that at first at least , when things move forward your mom will eventually become more accepting/tolerant I dunno , at least my mom did...

at first she would rather die than see me as a girl...now she is like "meh ok do what you like " lol.

I guess we have to cope with them for a while

My mom would have rather had me diagnosed with Aspergers than GD. Dad doesn't give two s**ts. He just want to see me happy and doesn't care how I dress.
I feel that this is yet another reason why m my parents will divorce

Seems some people who regularly send me holiday greetings neglected to do so this year. 

Lame.

Gee, I got a tie from an ancient and distant female relative. Gee thanks auntie, I can't wait to wear it! 

Quote from: Shantel on December 24, 2013, 04:49:36 PM
Gee, I got a tie from an ancient and distant female relative. Gee thanks auntie, I can't wait to exchange it! 

Fixed that for you.