SO here's an update on my situation if anyone is interested.
My girlfriend and I have been together on and off for 7 years now and we have decided to go our separate ways. We just seem to be better off as friends then we are in a relationship. It does scare me to be on my own again. I'm not really one to be out on the dating scene. I tend to be very social awkward and make a fool out of myself when meeting people in person. I just wonder if all of this is going to affect my own sense of being. She had told me that I had changed since imbracing who I really am. More serious and boring. I don't feel like I have changed, but then again I wake up to myself everyday. If someone were to see me today who hasn't seen me in the last six months they wouldn't recognize me. I know that for a fact because I have run into former friends or classmates and they don't realize it is actually me saying hi to them. I have been out for a year now though I am still pre-everything I like to think that I am making progress. I just hope it is the right type of change I am looking at.
Now for transitional news. I am signing up for new healthcare and hopefully that will go through in time for me to start T in February. I have a friend that I had met through the LGBTQ community who has helped me tremendously with info on everything from the newest doctors in town who see Transpeople to the different options as well as risk of testosterone. It's great to have a type of mentor who has gone through all of this to guide me through my own journey. I know right now if my....well no when my insurance goes through that I am going to put the doctor who works with the community as my GP.
On other planes I am currently a quarter of the way done with my confirmation classes. After many years of looking into different religions and combining theories, questions, and mostly understandable answers I have decide to keep with the family tradition of becoming a Catholic. I have made one right of acceptance so far. Moving along steadily. The best part about my church community is they believe in you are you and your a child of God, deserving of his love. No matter if your gay, straight, or trans they will accept you as a person. I think that is what really made me realize that that is how I want to be as well. Father Juan, who is our priest, actually checks in on me a lot. He says I have a lot to offer the world in the sense of understanding and guidance. It makes me feel good that I can be part of a church as loving as them.
Well I think that's about it. I know I don't post much and this is the only time I have actually delved into my life, but I hope to do it on a more regular basis.
Comments and questions are welcome. Thank you for reading have a good day!
