Subtle but great point.

There is remarkable power when you say, "I will not do...". No need to argue or complain, or feel victimized. We yield the power to show people how we expect to be treated. It does not need to be strident. Just true.

Thank you for your post.

Quote from: Isabelle on December 27, 2013, 03:55:49 PM
I went very slowly. I was on hrt until I couldn't pass as a boy if I wanted to. It was important to me that I was able to "pass" before I transitioned socially.

yea, I think I'll hold off a little longer until I look more like my avatar

Quote from: stephaniec on December 28, 2013, 04:55:03 PM
yea, I think I'll hold off a little longer until I look more like my avatar

Careful. I hear the transition from color to black and white can be painful.

Quote from: Tori on December 28, 2013, 05:28:26 PM
Careful. I hear the transition from color to black and white can be painful.

yea, it might be easier now I added some color

Quote from: Tori on December 28, 2013, 05:28:26 PM
Careful. I hear the transition from color to black and white can be painful.

Yes, there is an important story about a girl from Kansas flying in a tornado, landing and killing a witch and experiencing the colors of OZ.

Quote from: stephaniec on December 27, 2013, 03:21:22 PM
I'm at the point where I have been on HRT going on 4 months. My face is changing a little, my breasts aren't a problem, looking quite feminine. Each day I feel the estrogen surge through my veins,  I feel I'm getting bolder. I don't have many male cloths because I've been slowly paring  down since starting transition. I feel like putting the male stuff in the center of my apt. and vomiting on them. sorry for the graphics. I have to do this. I was sitting in a coffee house last night and this transgender walked by the window .I don't know her personally but I've seen her in the neighborhood for the last 5 years. She walked by the window and looked me in the eyes and there was this recognition that we were the same. She has been public for quite a while. Do others just reach that point where they just can't do the male thing any more and just kind of snap and do it.

Yes ma'am your just about there! When you say screw it and just live. I found myself at this point once I told EVERYONE that I was transitioning. Once everyone knew there was no point on holding back the inevitable just gotta do it! I set a time table of being on HRT to make my fulltime date which was 6 months. 

Yup. Happened 3 months ago. The immediate result: full time. And when I had to son a man suit again three months later... I had the vomit face at the shop while buying it.

Basically, that's how I transitioned. Once I popped, that was it.

Victoria, if I have been a member here longer than you, doesn't that mean I can insist you change your first name?

I recently popped into a mindset where I feel good enough about myself to let myself shine through. It is crazy cool.

Quote from: Tessa James on December 28, 2013, 06:08:47 PM
Yes, there is an important story about a girl from Kansas flying in a tornado, landing and killing a witch and experiencing the colors of OZ.

I never go near tornados

I'm getting closer and closer to going FT. Today I went shopping for clothes and shoes with my mom. Went all around the mall, several stores in a strip-mall, and then to Walmart. NOBODY looked at me funny or said anything as I was trying on heels and putting women's clothes up to myself to check the size. No reactions whatsoever. I also passed by a zillion mirrors, and I never once saw a guy in them. And carrying my purse, I noticed the strap was pushing between my tits, making them more obvious. I even got ma'am'd by the guy taking my lunch order, and I was in 'guy-mode' (yes, with a purse, but still.... ). Then the nail in the coffin, I went into the guy's section and found a pair of jeans that were supposed to be my size. The waist came up just below my tits! I had shrunk a bit even before HRT (maybe I wanted it bad enough xD ) and a 30 inseam USED to fit me before that. Now I'd need at least a 28, which I couldn't find. So guy jeans are just too big for me! I got a pair of women's jeans and they fit great. So I figured out all my clothing and shoe sizes, and I'm about to order more stuff. I originally wanted to go FT on my birthday so I could go to Miami for spring break dressed comfortably, but I still need to lose more weight. Wanted to wait to get a whole new wardrobe until I was in better shape. But now that I'm getting a little and a little, I just want all my clothes to be female clothes. Guy clothes are just getting too depressing, especially switching back and forth. And if today is any evidence, I'm starting to think guy-mode is just pointless. So it's looking more and more likely that I will go FT on my birthday.

Quote from: Tori on December 28, 2013, 07:03:07 PM
Victoria, if I have been a member here longer than you, doesn't that mean I can insist you change your first name?

I recently popped into a mindset where I feel good enough about myself to let myself shine through. It is crazy cool.

I've been here since 2010 so, if your profile is telling the truth, I'm older than you in that way. ... and no, my mom gave me this name before I was born (yay hormonal tests in the womb!!) so I'm keeping it. On a funnier note, I go by 'Tori' to friends who've known me for a long time. Bwa ha ha ha ha!

Enjoy the ride on the crazy train, lady. It's a pretty neat thing to go through.

Quote from: Victoria Mitchell on December 28, 2013, 08:40:38 PM
I've been here since 2010 so, if your profile is telling the truth, I'm older than you in that way. ... and no, my mom gave me this name before I was born (yay hormonal tests in the womb!!) so I'm keeping it. On a funnier note, I go by 'Tori' to friends who've known me for a long time. Bwa ha ha ha ha!

Enjoy the ride on the crazy train, lady. It's a pretty neat thing to go through.

Noooooooo!

Ok, you get to pick my name.

True story time. If I were born female, I would have been given one of the few names I can not use as a trans person... Amanda. A man duh! Gaaaa!

Can't you just settle on Vickie?

Yes, that moment where everything changes did happen for me kind of. It wasn't fully under my control - I was living two lives, one at work, and one outside. But I call that part-time point the moment where it all changed.

From there it only took a week before I couldn't go to work any more in my failing boy mode. I spoke to my boss, said that I wasn't comfortable playing a male role any more, and asked to work remotely. And I kind of said that I'd come in as my female self if they didn't approve that. It was approved, and I went full-time .

Quote from: Ashey on December 28, 2013, 08:36:04 PM
I'm getting closer and closer to going FT. Today I went shopping for clothes and shoes with my mom. Went all around the mall, several stores in a strip-mall, and then to Walmart. NOBODY looked at me funny or said anything as I was trying on heels and putting women's clothes up to myself to check the size. No reactions whatsoever. I also passed by a zillion mirrors, and I never once saw a guy in them. And carrying my purse, I noticed the strap was pushing between my tits, making them more obvious. I even got ma'am'd by the guy taking my lunch order, and I was in 'guy-mode' (yes, with a purse, but still.... ). Then the nail in the coffin, I went into the guy's section and found a pair of jeans that were supposed to be my size. The waist came up just below my tits! I had shrunk a bit even before HRT (maybe I wanted it bad enough xD ) and a 30 inseam USED to fit me before that. Now I'd need at least a 28, which I couldn't find. So guy jeans are just too big for me! I got a pair of women's jeans and they fit great. So I figured out all my clothing and shoe sizes, and I'm about to order more stuff. I originally wanted to go FT on my birthday so I could go to Miami for spring break dressed comfortably, but I still need to lose more weight. Wanted to wait to get a whole new wardrobe until I was in better shape. But now that I'm getting a little and a little, I just want all my clothes to be female clothes. Guy clothes are just getting too depressing, especially switching back and forth. And if today is any evidence, I'm starting to think guy-mode is just pointless. So it's looking more and more likely that I will go FT on my birthday.

that's what I need . a bunch of clothes. and to lose weight

I really fear shopping for clothes. I fear I will become addicted. Also no telling how much my sizes will change. Panties only for now... I feel a bra coming on soon.

Quote from: Tori on December 28, 2013, 08:45:39 PM
Noooooooo!

Ok, you get to pick my name.

True story time. If I were born female, I would have been given one of the few names I can not use as a trans person... Amanda. A man duh! Gaaaa!

Can't you just settle on Vickie?

Given that I've legally changed my name to Victoria Mitchell, that would be a bit counter intuitive. Given that I'm well known in the world as Victoria and Tori... no. 

Quote from: SammyRose on December 28, 2013, 08:47:37 PM
Yes, that moment where everything changes did happen for me kind of. It wasn't fully under my control - I was living two lives, one at work, and one outside. But I call that part-time point the moment where it all changed.

From there it only took a week before I couldn't go to work any more in my failing boy mode. I spoke to my boss, said that I wasn't comfortable playing a male role any more, and asked to work remotely. And I kind of said that I'd come in as my female self if they didn't approve that. It was approved, and I went full-time .

I see what you mean the failing boy mode when I look in the mirror

Quote from: stephaniec on December 28, 2013, 09:01:57 PM
I see what you mean the failing boy mode when I look in the mirror

Yup. Was not comfortable at the time, but funny now. I got more weird looks and stares in boy mode than I've had being myself now. 

Ummm, there was a period when I thought that I was entering that stage. Now... I dont really care that much anymore. Well, there are items and colours which I try to avoid but I am stuck into some kind of mixture between male and andro mode and it is ok for me now (I dont have adequate wet winter female overalls atm and I kinda ignore that my windbreaker is waaaaay to big and is sometimes flapping on my sides). So, for the time being - I just spice things up with female belts, tight jeans. ambiguous hats and accessories .